my philo-so-what

is Chineses new year....

2012-01-22T03:13:00.004+08:00

oww~~back to home from k.l, although I am still struggling about something so called "responsible".but then...BAHHHHHHH! due to my work stuff, although we can't ever hope that things run as smooth as we want it to be...

back to home town for 2 days half d....

every night accompany my dad to kopitiam drink beer...

johor bahru is so quiet... like abandoned city, I think K.L is the same as well...

every night I will have a good conversation with my dad...every night different topics...

just like friends yumcha the same way it goes...

I am quite happy coz I can talk out what I am thinking and what happened to me to my dad in kindda very straight forward way, and he accept it...

due to lotza problems I choose to run away or even escape from uncertain stuff...just don't want to get myself stress on stupid thingy.

this few day got a human being keep coming in my dream...

I don't know who exactly he/she is...and I forgot most of the things what I dreamed.

but whenever I wake up, I feel happy...thanks for that the one who in my dream...

I only remember I keep laughing only.haha

and so...

busy preparing those reunion dinner food...

the most busy one is not me still.haha

and so...my little brother....everyday play until too excited till don't want to sleep...

my peaceful time only available when he is sleeping...

and before he wake up, i gonna run out to meet my friends before he play too much and I kenal marah by my mom~haha

I almost fainted when he said A for aeroplane...B for beer.... oh nooo~(my dad teach one)XD

in another way, thanks god that give him to us :)

this song, the lyrics quite good...

by tanya,可爱...

我不是你们说的那个
我行我素是一种特色
独自看电影那又如何
我很快乐真的快乐没在胡扯

不当自己是落选的人
单身不就是一种过程
用心去寻找消遣娱乐
我一个人生活其实更多其实长得算可惜可怜没人我们总是为了爱在等待
却发现越等待越不会来

看太多朋友合了又分
看得我有点心灰意冷
不是不想爱只是觉得
爱不容易找适合的得靠其实长得算可爱
可惜可怜没人爱
我们总是为了爱在等待
却发现越等待越不会来

每当说起感情事情时，每个人都会说顺其自然；

可是又有谁是真的打从心里顺其自然呢？

这首歌说出了好多人的心声哦~~啊哈哈

小小小“篇”

2012-01-11T02:08:00.003+08:00

今天，去赞助商那选了适合的配件后，

很开心了开始了今天逛街。。。

原本是随处走走的到最后老娘我又“血拼”了。。。

真是很不应该。

可是也因为这样，第一次，今年里，买新年衣服给爸爸妈妈

一路上很细心的在找适合的也并不是那么简单的一件差事，

妈妈一直问我我是不是买很贵的给他们，

也还好啦，我第一次买，就买好点的，

将来努力赚钱再买更好的，

我的生活目标就是我的家人。

爸妈像小公主一样宠了你二十多年，为的不是让你在任何一个男人面前委屈求全。by jimmy :)

yohohoho~~

2012-01-08T00:26:00.004+08:00

oh yea~this is my first post in year 2012,

which is one week after first of January,

nothing special comes along,

i still keep myself at my lovely lonely hostel most of the time while working.

luckily my gor gor come and accompany me in my hostel, thx bonnie :)

thx for the blackout on last Thursday night, is the very first time i open out my 3 windows in my room, curtain away, in order to have some wind....and lying on my bed,look at the night sky...

stars....and just looking at it...let my brain to have a rest, it feels so good.

hehehe~~~soon cny is coming...and.................................

why i spend so many just to buy new cloths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz....is enough, going to stop myself from going any shopping centre, especially alone!

hahaha~

and so,

athis little monkey, him, himself said "ah-cha!" when i wanna take a photo for him.haha!

but! kids is seriously cannot stand diam diam more than 30 secs.zzz

the behind one is the christmas pressie by aunteh,

and the "surprise" from her when she saw jelly beans in Brunei and bought it back to me....

thx aunteh eileen help me refill my "bean beanzz" jar...MUAKXZ

NANINANIBUBU~~~~~LALALA~i wonder why am i so happy this few days. haha

the last post of 2011

2011-12-31T17:08:00.002+08:00

2011年的最后一篇，

想着想着，发现好像只有那时2000的倒数很快乐，

（因为老爸剃了个和尚光头回家，然后一大班朋友庆祝）哈哈

接下来的都很平常的过了。

2011年，对自己有了个小小的突破，一整年也很充实，喜怒哀乐通通报到，

心智上的突破还不错，努力加油，

今天的11。59我应该会许愿，

愿望，就留在心里吧。

其他的，也不愿多说，

只希望，无论什么事情发生，友谊不会改变，

我一向很感激老天给了我很多很好很支持我的朋友，

这世上目前为止，只有她知道我喝咖啡多少糖，无论我们有多少时间能见面，

还有我每次要说什么都有人会知道的朋友，

说话笑到飙泪的朋友，

陪我喝黑咖啡的朋友，

谢谢你们。啊哈哈~

2012，希望可以到处走走，去找找每一个州的朋友，想念你们的笑容。。。

忙里偷闲篇~is CHRISTMAS~~~~~

2011-12-26T12:49:00.004+08:00

FINALLY~~~~oh yeaaaa~ Christmas is over....:D

I celebrated with my beloved friends, hohoho~

got a very happy dinner with aunteh eileen, uncle andy, chaile and ME :D

gift exchange....wuuuwuuu~ :)

i got aunteh's pressie....( it going to be useful in the further gathering)

chaile got andy's choppa hat.

aunteh got merry-go-round from lele,

andy got mine, uncle, is good for you to have a coffee in office :)

(super big mug and so u can make "kopi" kao kao) :D

and so....we continue our party in the zouk,

in the meanwhile we countdown in mashi's car....hahahaa

and so....meet new friends and plkn's friend, munching in zouk,(same table)

she said I slim down which makes me GUILTY coz i put on weight back 3kgs. WAAAAAAAA

this is the fact i have to accept and so the hardcore coming back,

I AM GOING TO UNFREEZE MY ACCOUNT! ( don don I don't want wait you back liao)

----back to story----

ok, that night in club was the very first night I feel stress during clubbing,

due to le's friend got a body guard, and when we wanna go to the washroom, he will bring us go.

(which makes me feels stress and my imagination is like, OMIIEGUD, there are kidnapper who wanna kidnap us and so we need a body guard, ;D) ok...i think too much.... just kidding.

and so, thx MASHI once again you make me half dead :(

my very first time to try champagne,tequila, illusion and long island....

( I still like illusion ) :) the other NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

The tequila burn me up and after the shot...

( i was shouting to myself, fuck, i am going to throw out soon) and it did. :(

coz the tequila made me headache.

and so....i been told to sit there guai guai don't move.

thx for le and eileen sayang me :) tannquuu.

my Christmas ended up not too bad :D

besides the throwing out part, the other is just so FUCKING AWESOME

the important part is, I do enjoy it with my friends,

lurve eiuux guys sooo MUCH ya~

p/s: to my mum, I don't know whether you did 24/7 to check my blog or not, but i do have a feeling that you did read my philo-so-what, i know 21 years old doesn't mean that I am totally free from you guys, and I know where is the limits so don't wollllly mieeeee. :)

not more than 5 days will be 2012...

as I said in the previous post before, 2012 will not be a doomsday (what i believe)

and don't because the world predict it is gonna to be a doomsday and keep shouting in your inner heart that " i am going to die i am going to die...''

IF you did that, PLEASE! just enjoy and fully use the time to the max instead of sitting there doing nothing.

soon....i am going to sit down and flash back what crazy stuff I did in year 2011 soon :D

tik tok tik tok..... i am sitting in a corner in TBS to wait bus to get back home.....ahhhhhhhh~~~

冬至

2011-12-22T23:43:00.004+08:00

本人第一次冬至不在家吃饭，

俗语说冬至可以说是小过年了，

回想每年冬至，家里就会煮一支白斩鸡，因为老爸说过节一定要有白斩鸡，

可是我超不喜欢吃白斩鸡的，

人就是这样，第一次没在家过节，

反而觉得奇怪今年冬至家里有煮白斩鸡吗。哈哈

今年冬至也不至于一个人过，

去了表哥家吃饭，过节的气氛始终都是要和家人一起的，不然真的很没有过节的FEEL。。。

话说我一直觉得冬至不一定要去酒楼吃大鱼大肉，

围着饭桌吃的家常便饭是最好的饭菜。。。:) :)

或是说，那种“古早味”是最齿家流香的

话说，TANYA的最新专辑是~超~好~听~的！

每一首我都是超爱的。

从“说到爱”，“爱我很简单”，“便利贴”，“旧行李”，到我每天都在听的“别找我麻烦”

每一首的词曲都让我说“赞”！

话说老妈今天不懂的什么风来潮，在我FB post 上那么“有意义”的东东送我过节，

老妈，我没失恋啦~我安啦！

你会找那么有意思的东西来，八成是看了我的部落各~你很update 下嘛 ~啊哈哈

今天我一口气把TANYA 的新歌听完，让我好想马上去旅行哦~

“ 便利贴” 的词深深把我hold 住。。。

我不想等到头发白了后还有任何遗憾
我不想等到心跳放慢了才去开辆跑车
梦想容易被遗忘
把它们贴满每一道墙
我想环游环游世界
去看七大奇迹骑着骆驼走遍埃及
环游环游世界
去看世界每一个角落

我不想等到皮肤都皱了才后悔没整容
我不想听到人说我胖了才又开始减肥
理想容易被忽略
把它们贴满每一道墙
我想遇见一位绅士
让我神魂颠倒不再寻找真命天子
我会爱他好好爱他
爱到生不如死的深度

我不想每天都挂在网上结交虚拟朋友
我不想拥有一切但还是感到空虚寂寞
真实容易变虚假
把它们贴满每一道墙
我想珍惜每一分钟
趁年轻去实现每个梦想证明自己
珍惜每一分钟
生命才会变与众不同
不是伟大自以为
也不是想胜过于谁
只是害怕自己会
漂浮在这茫茫人海
浪费时间。。。

--今天的领悟，什么东西，不管它是物质或感质上的享受，都要珍惜哦-- :) :)

curi photo from lelechai :) thx babe.hehe

第一百零一个答案

2011-12-20T04:54:00.002+08:00

哈咯早上的五点钟我睡不着，

可能是追刀大的书到很过瘾，就睡不下了，

刚过的星期六是~超~忙~累~开心~的~~~

乐的毕业，晓微老婆他们的毕业，恭喜恭喜~

就努力找份工吧~

那天NEWAY无意的想起这首“第一百零一个答案”，小美的歌，

这两天脑袋一直浮现这首歌，

自己知道有一块“区域”不想去想，

也懒得去问，就如歌词所说的

“忘了吧，昨天感伤；谁也帮不上忙，关于爱，你问一百个人，会得到一百个不一样的答案”

与其问了如果添加了更多的烦恼的话，到不如不问，不想。

人嘛，终是自己犯贱自寻烦恼。

虽然自己死命的提醒自己，哈哈哈~努力当中。。。

忽然觉得自己很颓废，原因不详。

忽然觉得自己也很白痴，原因不详。

更死的是，忽然觉得为什么最近麻将打得那么的烂！！！

这，真的是有点想幢墙！

想必，我需要一点时间来整顿自己的心智，（不要真的白痴真是会苦了我爹娘）

规划下明年不容许颓废时间太多。

虽然往往计划会赶不上时间的变化，

或是说，还要有更深的应变能力来HOLD住任何的程咬金。

还有一点，这是平常的我不会真正去做的事情，

就是去读2012 年的运势，

我要嘛就对自己没信心，

要嘛就受我身旁每天有人在跟我说星座的人，（小琪看到这里别迟疑，就你和晓微）啊哈哈哈~

要嘛，我在忐忑不安什么老娘我自己也不知道，然后就找个好点的理由自己瞎掰安慰自己，

忘记的话就算了。哈哈~

OK 话说曾经的我蛮霸道加任性。我~自~认~ 哈哈

想起以前的某某经验，自己“前”原型毕露。哈哈

然后。。。。想起。。。。

“只是谁能救赎谁的过往

只是谁能填补谁的遗憾

千回百转。。。难。。。

爱却不是最后一站；

爱只是借过的小巷；

明天的路还那么长。。。”

这句话，意思不错哦，所以凡事看开。。。哈哈哈

Christmas is coming~

2011-12-16T15:56:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming~~~oh yea..

I might over excited....BAHAHAHA~

this year is the very first time I am going to celebrate my Christmas in Kuala Lumpur...

I think that the reason I over excited is, every time I doing my research for my job purpose,

I will be in Mid Valley, Pavilion and so on, the Christmas decoration is so awesome~~~

and so....

been working in K.L for about half month already, everything till now is quite ok,

as in my work no need go to office and punch card everyday,this is the awesome part,

BUT~suffering part is I need to do a lot of things of of my imagine,

anyway, the important part is the learning part to get things done and solve...

AND FINALLY!

my new laptop!!!! finally I can get it by next week...

one thing to live without laptop is, can sleep punctual at night, will not chase drama series in the midnight, hahahahha~but when it comes to work part, haha....have to arrange properly.

and so, CHAI XINLE IS GRADUATING TOMORROW~~~oh yeaaa

hahaha~ luckily, she is not leaving me,haha

she is going to work in LKW, not a student.hahahaha~we can still live together,

this is the AWESOME PART FOR ME~wuuhooo~

looking forward to 2012...

it will not be a doomsday, it will be a new beginning. :)

大黑的纪念~

2011-12-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

今天这一篇，用来纪念我的大黑吧~

毕竟我用它来写部落各也有“年”的时间了，那熟悉打字的FEEL，哈哈哈

一定有人会心想，我怎么那么傻，就换架电脑罢了嘛，

话不是那么说的，我是个很念旧的人，我不随便买下一样很贵的东西，

那么大黑是我进大学时的第一份礼物，所以它的价值，对我来说是很高的~

话说我是电脑白痴，从什么都不懂，到半懂的状态，（现在）

从PHOTOSHOP要怎样做一张MOODBOARD 都不会到会，（半途中自己还会乱骂）

EMO忽然来潮时一定要有大黑的陪伴度过的我，

ARMAGEDDON 那种 N年前的电影想看多几次时也是大黑。。。

每次回家你那么的大，老娘拼死都要把你带回家，

大黑啊~你在老娘心里的地位很高下，

你的生命力也超强的说！

谢谢你的垂死挣扎的再陪我过多一个星期~~~

谢谢你的陪伴，虽然你是一个没有实体生命的东西~

什么咚咚！！！！

2011-12-02T01:54:00.002+08:00

老娘我这几天原本脾气很好的说，

每天熬夜赶工作的东西，

干！半路跟我杀出个程咬金！

那程咬金也挺可怜的被我酸死，

就自己要会做人，没事来找碴干吗？

算，这种不甘提起的事情，说出来了自己内出血还要自己花钱医病，

话说今年将会是我第一年在KL 过圣诞节，有点小期待哦~圣诞节是我从小最喜欢的！

除了那被老妈骗说挂校袜圣诞老公公会给我礼物之外，剩下的，都还是美好的回忆下~

所以说，今年的圣诞要不就把它干大点来疯，要不就不要庆祝~

老娘我还是应该要策划下的。。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈！

还有，老娘我开始工作了，一切还在掌控之中，要HOLD住！！！！

难得一次的机会也~虽然占时还是开心的，

刚和宝贝们唱歌~就真的是，知我者莫属她们也！

好久没有乐开怀的唱歌~开心开心~~~~

人生就要活得精彩！

哪怕是被伤过，开心过还是什么咚咚！

如果什么东西都是带着“我怕”

那你真的很浪费做人也！

难得前世修来今世能做成人，

为什么不敢去体验下人世间的甜酸苦辣来提升自己呢？

不跌到哪里知道痛，不知道痛哪里会长大？　

我的歪道理固然很歪，（我自己觉得）

可是意思就差不多的在那边，

看不懂的人请找高人指点～哈哈哈哈！

2011-11-27T05:14:00.002+08:00

又一个星期就这样过拉。。。

想回家的我呢，又因为星期一开工了而回不了家帮老爸庆祝生日。

mifa 2011 终于要结束了，这一次的我是参与幕后的帮忙，

也好不容易见到我的贱女人,虽然大家都忙到真的是没什么时间，沟通不到五分钟就闪人，

也见了很多好久不见的朋友，大家三八起来还是那么的一样，很开心那时stylo 的时候认识你们！

mifa 的参赛折不是那么的友善。哈哈，是我想太多了吗？

我的头发长到一个可以绑的地步了。。。贱女人！我约你剪头发很久了！我快要不行了，

虽然你也一样没什么style le~ 哈哈！

废话完毕。。。

虽然是熬了两天没睡，

我真的觉得自己真的暴肝的话，就请骂我活该！犯贱到熬什么夜嘛!

再来一个让我足以十秒落泪的消息，

中学的一位朋友离开了我们，

没消息的时候没消息，一有消息的时候就不是好消息，

想起以前有说有笑，虽然你还大过我，

可是，脑海里很记得，你很亲切。

人走了，可是，留下的记忆是美好的，

朋友，安息了。

这世界上的事情变化无常，

我今世能和任何一位人结为朋友，是上辈子修的福

大家不管缘分是深是浅，都应该珍惜。

惜缘。

2011-11-18T04:09:00.002+08:00

犯贱的人还不睡觉就会想写些东西。。。。

休息了一下，要死！考试还没读，哎呀，大学生考试不需要读那么多的，

心里的自我安慰，只要睡眠充足，就绝对考试没问题，

哈哈哈~最后那LAST MINUTE 的温习才最吊的！

最近开始猜疑一些事情，虽然我不想自己想太多，

厚脸皮的说我不想发现结果偏让我发现，

这朋友的关系，有时看似简单可是并没想像中简单，

悲哀的啊！

算了，我最近对什么都很看的开，

可是，我越看的开就代表，我放弃了所谓的“关心”

日久见人心嘛，你关心人家那人家不削何必自讨苦吃呢，

关心自己的开心最重要！

对于我来说不是自私，只是避免心痛，就是那么的简单了啦~

刚唱K回家，很便宜的一次，要不是老婆就要搬了加她那句，

“我们认识三年了这才是第二次唱歌，就陪她吧，

虽然超级不舍她搬，她跟我说句，天下无不散的宴席，我还能说什么，悲哀中，

更悲哀的是，我的室友蔡昕乐也要毕业了~

WAKAO一次来两个，老娘我哭定了！

接下来的日子，还是要捱完，谁叫我还有一年半，没关系，我会好好的。

老婆昨早从MCD拿了“一张”报纸回来，她说很有意义，读下，也蛮对的。

人生12 难

最难留住的是光阴，最难把握的是机遇；

最难做好的是细节，最难处理的是关系；

最难改变的是习惯，最难得到的是人心；

最难分配的是利益，最难控制的是情绪；

最难挑战的是自己，最难找到的是知音；

最难抵挡的是诱惑，最难提高的是素质；

人生就是一个不停放弃的过程，有时我们并无选择，

爱；因为不能拥有而深刻，梦因为不能圆而美丽，

人生，总是带着残缺的美，因缺憾而凄美。

break it down bre-ak it down~

2011-11-11T01:45:00.002+08:00

现在的我坐在这里写，应该是星期三到现在睡没超过2小时的时间了吧。

超吊的说，我竟然不是为我自己的PRESENTATION而没睡觉，是学妹们的，

一定有人说我神经病或什么，那种热诚是无法形容的。。。虽然是超级无敌的累

犯贱的情况下，和兄弟俩去了海边，反正就放松下心情，哈哈哈，开心就好。

最近都很尽量的让自己很忙，忙到没时间睡觉，也甘愿。

忙碌的时间就没有机会让自己有想念的机会，

最近觉得“活在当下”这词很爽！haha

就尽量的做多点让自己有学习的机会，哈哈哈。。。

开心就好

ba la ba ba ba

2011-11-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

最近的我很准时地上来写东西，哈哈

十一月的我真的是忙~其实让自己很忙是件很爽的事情！

至少不觉得自己是在浪费时间过日子，过日子也要过得很有意义的~

最近文艺到一个不行的地步，

起码有五年没写中大楷的我竟然随便的买起了墨汁，

一只很没有手感的毛笔就这样的坐在客厅写书法~

干！我可以就这样子的写个一小时。

其实那就是我，哈哈~“想当年”我就是这样子的。

心烦，最省钱的方法就是定下心来无杂念的写书楷！

要不我就读书，读的不一定是功课上关系到的，

怎样都好找些事情来提升自己还是必要的~

很快的~十一月了！！！超穷的一个月~

所谓的“小财不出，大财不入”

我人生以来的第一次贿赂！虽然是我区区的百多块，

为了让事情更顺利地完成还真的是没什么办法！

所以说政府小部门的人穷个屁啊！帮我盖几个印章百多块，

那五十个人找你盖下，你不是一个月拿三个月的工资吗~

算了，在这念念下忘记就好~哈哈

我的人生未来五年大计，正如火如荼的展开，

累点没关系，辛苦点没关系~

最近很努力在干一本书，老妈以我们家公司报效的， “生命密码"

希望看完后会有什么人生启发~

我的WHAT-EVER

2011-10-28T15:28:00.003+08:00

最近严重的“半颓废”状态再次出现，

不知道是我说我老婆严重颓废，结果自己好像也步了她的后尘。。。

近一个星期都没什么做到GYM的我，超没注意到！要死的是，

我竟然没自己煮饭，都在楼下吃个随便来解决。。。

真的很想自己去幢墙，加上两天通宵麻将，哇！我经典！

原因简单，等待GROUP DISCUSSION中，还有不喜欢的LAST- MINUTE 的功课

虽然颓废不想帮朋友的衣服车完，也知道这星期必须回家

老妈的“必杀记”很强下，

她跟你说没关系，后补一句她会很失望，

没有任何理由让你不回家。虽然会赶到半死的状态，没办法，谁叫我老妈那么厉害。

最近的我也很WHATEVER

就连煮饭都在一个很WHATEVER的状态下，

吃了三天午餐的“少面”意大利面，
原因是，在上一次老妈到访的时候，干了两包意大利面来给我，

我“特制”版的意大利面，

是想吃什么就放什么，

可能有鸡蛋，金针菇都可能出现在我的意大利面里，

就想吃什么就放什么，想吃什么，或是冰箱有什么

都会在我的考虑范围之内。

也终于，买了一个保护膝盖的东西，

原于那天忽然的打羽球，

也不想在我还没事业有成脚残废，或终生不能穿高跟鞋的理由下，

把它买下，因为那种再度膝盖伤痛，会让人忽然眼前黑去。

这星期都半琐碎，幸好没浪费什么时间，

还读了九把刀的两本书，虽然自己一个人傻笑的读，

旁边的人会不知道我到底在笑什么，

因为我也是会干傻事的人一个。哈哈哈

重点是自己开心就好。

还有家里来了个新成员。

老妈问我意见要帮扬扬换什么名，

我最喜欢的还是李浚铨，其他的，名字听起来都好80年代。。。哈哈哈

你老姐在这里跟你说，虽然你也还不会读，

将来是我养你也，拜托你不要气死我，哈哈哈哈，我尽我可能的把你养大吧

:) :)

虽然是乱煮一通，美观还是很重要的。。。

OH YESSSS

2011-10-22T23:32:00.003+08:00

oh yea~~~~

finally, done with two presentations, luckily both I did is not that bad...

I think i should praise myself for the "quick responding" and talks or shoot back whatever on the spot. phew.... hahahaha ended up with a great for myself.

coz I never had this kind of proper presentation through out the last three years.

those presentation I had before is just explain what I did on my garments and so on....

and now come to totally different types of presentation,

I thought I will GG....luckily I just don't care and just speak....hehehe~~~ clap clap

and thx to miss nikoo like the way I did in my advertising presentation....

and so...after both important presentation...

sick here it comes....

start to feeling not well and after yesterday night at @live,

threw out and oh gosh....

da lang da da da~~~~

and so....

something comes to my mind when have a small chat with mashi this evening....

I won't because of someone, or something, change the entire things of my life.

like, I just wanna be the real me,

I won't because of anyone change to "someone" that is so called " perfect" in his eyes,

and so I lost myself. and, that is not "me" anymore...

it sounds complicated....but somehow,

just be yourself. :)

the true one, not the fake one.

not need to act as a good and gentle girl while you are not.

hahahaha ( no offences to anyone)

the real bitches are those who acts,

not those who speak vulgar words, drinks or just like a tom boy or something.

they are just being the real one. :)

其实；我很幸福；一直都是。

2011-10-16T06:23:00.005+08:00

今天干了人生中很好笑的事情，

与其说好笑，倒不如说我豁出去了。

与你的相遇不到一个月，这是我最白痴的事情，我竟然喜欢你，

虽然把话都说开了也没什么坏处，

毕竟我蛮难藏这种白痴事，

和妈妈说起，虽然她大笑，可是也支持我说，

毕竟就算她不用想，就想到了，

谢谢哦的老妈，你很可爱。

也毕竟从小到大我不怕跌倒，不怕受伤，就跌下就没事了嘛

这是我的第一点幸福，因为我那可爱的家。

第二点的幸福，是朋友的幸福，

大家都很疼我，哈哈哈哈！！！！

xinle, xiao qi, eileen, yang, xiao gua, xiao wei, mor mor and andy....

YOU GUYS ROCK AHHHHH!!!!!

我的auntehs们好可爱，

Eileen 的正面打气，

Xinle Qi 的陪伴，

Yang and Mor mor bear 的讽刺；

Xiao Gua 爽爽的问候，

Andy 的静静笑（虽然我不懂你笑什么）

还有你，不要做会让自己后悔的事情，

后悔了没有回头路，也没有U-TURN

我很清楚记得我对你说了什么，

我会追寻我要的理想，因为我内心只有一个字对我的理想，PASSION。

我不能肯定答应你的事情我是否能做的到。

我相信打的那个勾勾，（如果你记得的话）

大家怕我受伤，怕我EMO，怕我发傻，

可是并没有，哈哈哈，

我还是那个RANDOM的我，

不然的话，我应该不知我的灵魂去了哪里，

或是一心两三用（这常发生，请别见怪）

所以没有理由悲伤，理由不够充分，

我们的故事，待续吧... ...

幸福；不一定要两个人在一起，

幸福；不一定要得到你要的你就会开心，

幸福；偶尔是很小的一样事情，一种食物；

幸福；偶尔是一群朋友的嘻嘻哈哈；

幸福；偶尔是好朋友的一个拥抱，

幸福；偶尔是妈妈的一通电话，和爸爸煮的晚餐

惜福；才是最重要的。

:) :)

small hobbies that going to make em into DREAM?

2011-10-15T14:55:00.002+08:00

went to the gym this early morning,

all the way singing back with the stupid don don ( he is not stupid but cute)

when think back about last night i said he maybe can try to have 洪金宝's 80's or 90's hair cut....

will be kindda cute and nice...and so ...

when back to home and sit in front of my lappy....

OMFG!!!! ACTUALLY DON DON cut that style before ...

and due to what he said, that's why he remain silent all the way when I suggesting him....

funny funny !!! i can't stop laughing when imaging back the "hair style" on his head.... XD

and so...my tiredness doesn't bring me to my bed...

instead, I sitting in front of my lappy and play guitar hero AGAIN!

(I never get bored of challenging it) nyiak nyiak~

and so...it makes me flash back on my dreams...

ANNA SUI was my muse when I 1st study fashion design...

and so yang said my future brand will be " ann sui" ==''

although I am not going to use it...

wanna be like her....holding a brand not only in wearing attire, in makeup as well...

and so, I wanna to be a rocker!!!! or get a rocker boyfriend instead.

unfortunately, I don't know how to play guitar or either how to read the cord,

AND!! i don't know any band and how am I going to have a rocker boyfriend??? LOL

well....maybe....probably....I don't know....

rocker is very hard to be ( coz i don't think that is a fatty woman become a rocker )BAHAHAH

AND! aiks....like a week never work out properly...

should focus back to gym and work my ass lose MORE! HAHAHAHA!!!

DAMN U MOR WEI HUAT DONT SMALL SEE ME I TELL YOU!

and...

yea!!!!! aunteh eileen got her job!!!! clap clap ( oouh oouh) ( aunteh remember the zoo part here)

and yea!!!I finally learned how to play mahjong!!!wuuupiii!

I am not that nerd actually... :) :)

just a way to release some stress...hahaha

small updates

2011-10-13T15:27:00.004+08:00

dadadada....totally is a very tired week....

assignments reports group works presentation....

and finally will be EXAMS....ahhhh

unfortunately,this semester not going to end so soon, it's going to end like week 19...

due to the exams.

and so, is a not enough sleep at all week....

blame it to myself as well, just not willing to sleep sometimes while doing other thingy in front of my lappy...

and so, back to some sewing time, sewed up one blanket for little monkey, yang yang...

officially my parents adopted him.

welcome to this funny family coz it is just contain a lot of insane and crazy people....or terrible laughing people such as your sis which is me. HAHAHA

and so, doing some sewing thingy....to acc my xiao wei for her very last final collection while have to guide them for cutting the pattern ( luckily I was good in cutting pattern.)

and so....addicted to three songs currently....although they are not new songs at all...

thx for don don intro me two of them by a china's singer, his voice is just so damn awesome....

春天里，当我想你的时候，and ...may day's version of 天天想你。

can i say that although somehow I will think very negatively....coz short of confidence or stress or whatever shit it is....

and I was so happy that actually there are still friends there to cheer me up, to tease me up...

is better that you got no one to share to laugh to cry to speak with. :)

whoever YOU GUYS know who are you.... aunteh semut say terima kasih....

hahahahhaha

~~read it from some other's people's blog...

and found out.....it is quite nice. :)~~~~

life may not always be fair
life may not always be nice
life may not always be fun

but you should learn to accept what you cannot change
to strive and meet your goals
to never give up on your dreams

live, love, laugh, and pursue your dreams

TIME... is that what I needed or I need courage? XP

October....

2011-10-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

is October....

soon, lotza people are leaving when October ends.

went to the zoo negara with aunteh eileen, xinle xiaoqi aikawa, timothy and mor mor....

hehehhehehee!!!!!all the way walk walk and walk...BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!aiks....

raining day~:(

but i am kindda syiok sendiri besides the "holding umbrella" walking all the way la...

and then went to the cafe that mor mor friend's open one...play back the board game,haahaa shadow n hunter...

but seems like too tired to play at the beginning, or maybe is too hungry or something...

play until last two round only like really "focus" to play....hahha

and THEN ! we will never just ends our Saturday like that "normal"

1st time went to viva shopping mall....I don't know should called it a shopping mall or something,

coz all is furniture....and CIONG K!

hahhaa...although ended up me and aunteh eileen too cold and sitting outside sampat one month things that we haven't sampat....until finished....

and the time of ciong k also ended...HAHAHAHA

and so....is xinle's i feel online voting period.....OMG.....

VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE ANYONE WHO SAW THIS!!!

oh yea....will be having a busy week....

( gonna be a bit healthy) hahahaha

presentation falls on tomorrow, group assignment have to follow up, and so final, and so gym and swimming is the PART never ever missed out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha! thx aunteh eileen that I slim down~OH YEA!

cannot just because of this and happy till like insane...

NO!i gonna work it out....:)

and suddenly found out this song is quite nice, but it is kindda emo....by ah mei.

还有眼泪就好

如果我能忍住不哭　假裝我什麼也不知道
你會不會停留　直到我能用力微笑
如果我不期待擁抱　好讓你放心走得輕巧
你能不能回頭　（勉為其難）　對我安慰　不要自找　煩惱

難道愛情虛有其表　還是太認真才輸掉
想不開就不想　得不到就不要
誰說分手不曾預料　只有走到盲點就好　
不要天茺地老　只有哭到睡著

如果我不期望回報　承認感情從來沒公道
你會不會後悔　你把我拋棄得太早　
如果我縱容你選擇　還為你幸福大聲裨禱　
你會不會聽到我在內心曾經求饒
不要太快逃跑

難道愛情虛有其表　還是太認真才輸掉
想不開就不想　得不到就不要
誰說分手不曾預料　只有走到盲點就好　
不要天荒地老　只有哭到睡著
晚了　變了

很多道理我都知道　流完眼水就能做到
想不開就不想　得不到就不要
誰說分手不曾預料　只要好來好去就好
不要哭得太早　否則怎麼睡著　
只要還有眼淚就好

A small update...

2011-09-29T17:20:00.006+08:00

okay....is week 9 half....SO FAST!!! i like did nothing

and TONS of assignments ahhhhhhh~

gotta finish you guys and throw to lectures all before week 11....

and so....didn't really sleep enough this few days....jezzzzz

something funny happened just now...

Don Don was asking me where am I and both of us buddies decided to have a blood donation~~~

and YEA~ we went to hospital in bandar puteri, and the nurse or reception people told us that they are not providing any blood donation thingy....

( 1st comes to my mind is like HUH....WE WANT TO DONATE BLOOD ALSO CANNOT??)

and so we went to government "big type" clinic....

Don was like nervous all the way....

and BAHAHAHAHAH~ same things happened.....

that place also cannot donate blood...

his conclusion is ....

wanna donate blood and save people's life...

but then people don't let him to have a chance...XD

and so...

yesterday went to ioi....

watched "abduction" and found out this book in popular...

kindda caught my attention and just so focus and try to finish it....

but then I just finish half of it....

see how I GOTTA buy it back

although there are a lots more of books I feel like I wanna get them ....aiks...

and so buy a cute little jar to let my jelly beans to have a "proper" home to live on before the ants attack them...HAHA...

when I was filling it in with jelly beans...

like somehow, "jar of hearts" this song popping out ...

hahaha~

beans they are my medicines....to make me happy. :)

this little monkey in my house is getting OMG ....

not yet reach one years old he walk like a Donald duck ....

told by my mum....hahaha~I wonder when he is two years old what will happen....hahaha

a stupid week update

2011-09-25T05:04:00.004+08:00

another week passed.

September is going to end soon....

October is coming....

not a really "happening" week to me,

but did went to club twice, continuing ....

1st is to zouk to celebrate chenelle's boyfriend birthday...

not only is darius birthday, new friends birthday also, goes to yang zhen and a sweet girl...

nice to meet you guys...really can't imagine that still got someone can as lame as me....HAHAHA

and yesterday was in @live to celebrate see wei and her boyfriend ivan's birthday.

is kindda bored for me....AIKS....is live band there...

i thought it gonna be fun...but then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am too young to @live...

uncles and mak cik banyak xia~ XP

and the live band is thai....kindda gerli for me .....coz the powder on the guys face are really damn fucking THICK! realli ah gua pattern. hahaha ( no offence)

the only good thing for @live is the music is kindda good.

I don't know why I feeling so down last night,

but after a sleep, suddenly everything seems like forgot d....so....hahah~( sendiri cari pasah)

and nah!!!!

when to watch nasi lemak 2.0....

ok....all the way i laugh like insane...coz, it just too local, and it is like daily happened stuff in my family, hahah~and makes me think of my daddy....

what he used to do at home to make us laugh.hahahaha....

anyhow....

it is week 9.....6 more weeks to go...and gonna wait for MIFA....

all the best to michelle, believes in you ;) ;)

2011-09-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

finally it is time to update....

ishhh~ replacement classes like never end....but a bit suffer...then 2 weeks no class...oh yea~

Thx for STARKER!!!! and i try my very 1st time vomits....omfg.

and I know i talked a lot....hahahah~but

ALL I said~is so fucking true man!

i know I shouldn't too care about but....i still.

instead of crying i said it out.

some of the things, is i never have in my life before, that why bring it out i become too care...

or sometime my own set " perfectness" make myself too hard to breath.

MAYBE...sometime just say whatever out, or my feeling outs is kindda a good release??

there are a lot of goals in my life,

no matter how tough it going to be, no matter how many tears are going to drop,

once i believe i can make it, or i have the chances to go for it,

why can't I go for it??

life is just once,

I appreciate it with hopes.... :)

aunteh eileen, I KINDDA MISS U A LOT....

2011-09-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

终于我也回来了，不知道在忙些什么大事，

就，不懂要怎样真正有那个时间坐下来静静的写一篇，

反正，有时写给谁他们也不知道，就只能记下自己有想念。

九月不知不觉就这样差不多要过一大半了。。。

我好不舍得九月啊~

昨天和朋友们去了P。D，

可是，败就败在天宫不做美，跟我下起大雨来了！

跟你们的第一次BBQ竟是那么的狼狈；

也在打牌和麻将声中度过了。。。

哈哈哈！可是也不错开心啦~

今天一睡醒就望着退潮了的海岸。。。不错写意下，很有FEEL。。。

我很喜欢海边，有个人也很喜欢海边，

可是我们都没有一起去过海边，

哈哈。

"我遇见你是最美丽的意外”...

就ZHE YOUNG

2011-09-04T19:55:00.003+08:00

哦的第三粒蛋糕~~~

今天起得半早，多亏了早上六点才睡。。。

见了好久不见的小弟。。。

手上拿着一个四方的盒子。。。亲手做给我的蛋糕。。。

心里的开心，是那么的多，转眼，我们从中3 吵闹玩读书到现在。。。

这一星期的假期就这样过了，感觉上什么大便我都还没做到！

重点是明天考试，我还在这里犯贱写部落各还不去读书。。。

忽然想起以前FORM5 的时候读CHEMISTRY到睡着，

结果给我堂哥吓醒被逼着读完。。。要不，我的化学应该是F 大大个。。。

还有很想念老哥的冷面！卤肉啊！！！（想一下不会肥的啦hoR）

昨天无意看见自己留下过悲伤的地方，那一景一物，

忽然间的就这样闪过，

不需要别人假装的同情或不真心的关心，

发现有时我行我素，并没有什么不好，

每次太在乎，不被珍惜的心痛是更没有任何言语能形容的。

所以，不要问我为什么，因为没有为什么，

就因为不知道当下会面临或选择怎样的事物，那才会有挑战性。。。

哈哈哈哈哈~

还有最近我才“深知”原来我睡觉的PATTERN跟我的人一样怪。。。

重点是我差不多就要梦游的境界了~哈哈哈

还有个美女说睡前没听见我打呼声会睡不着，害羞下~

我就把“它”录给你当你毕业礼物要不？？啊哈哈哈哈！！！！！

就这样认真地去过我的日子吧~

2011-09-01T01:30:00.009+08:00

oh yea~

BACK in KL....

hohohoho~ don't talk about sad thing......

talk about food and my presies~

I don't have much presie for my 21st birthday~

jelly beans jelly beans~

beans beans~~~~

can you guys know how much I LOVE THEM????

omg!!!i am a bit sad what if i am going to finish it soon and where to get them in K.L???

coz,is my lovely cousie bring it back from aussie.....

love you so murrrch

the reason i like to eat those beans beans are due to, don't look at they are what flavor,

and just pick like what color u like in that moment,

eat it and there will be surprise....hehehe

but it is kindda touch~

currently i cut one cake on 24th...haha~

tomoro i am going to cut another one which is made y my housemate~kae~

is kindda touch that you wait me back and bring a home baked cake for me~

and it is done by you~ really OMG coz i dunno how to make cakie.

and ~went to One utama just now

Mr. Daryl Lu belanja me dinner~oh yea buddy thanks so much~

and so the very first time having molten chocolate cake~~~~so damn rich chocolate~~~

i love it so much~

and my very 1st birthday card after so many years....

so touch~ coz it is like~self made and so details....thx sherly....muaks

some part of the BEH SONG things don't wanna to say it....

just hope it won't mad me up~

and so.....just do the things i like....AHAHHAAHH

midnight with pajamas having my 1st tutti frutti
molten chocolate i love u~

my 21st birthday

2011-08-24T02:53:00.004+08:00

finally is my turn, I AM OFFICIALLY 21 YEARS OLD~

old??? not yet not yet...

is another part of my life just begins....

this year, I took a bit more time to make my wishes....

3 wishes.....how much I hope it will be 10~ but yea...

just because it is not that much, so you will make the wishes that you really want it to be....

1st wish goes to myself,

2nd goes to my friends and my family,

3rd...don't know how to say it here....>,<

it been 3years I pass my birthday in KL not in home,

and the numbers of friends helping me to celebrate is getting lesser,

due to work, due to not in KL and due to other reasons,

I am glad that!!! 3 years ,they are still with me which is yang qi and le.

is a bit sad in heart la....

but really appreciate what they gave to me...

no matter how many times of thank you is not enough....is what I think...

我想说，无论多难过的日子；

我还是幸福的。

有些事情不是我答应了不去做到，是我不想友情就那么快的流失掉；

是我还想有那个机会一起吃晚餐。

谢谢你们。:) :)

2011-08-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

finally is time to update blog awhile.

recently been very active with gym and swimming,

coz.... beside to get a healthy lifestyle, besides wanna to work my fat out from my body,

and found out actually it is quite a good way to release stress,

and keep those unneeded gossip away from me,

enjoying this kind of life very much,

a bit sad coz friends are leaving,

back to their countries, the percentages to meet them again in my entire life don't even know is how much...

somehow, another "drama" happen recently....

no words can describe,

just.....different people have different thinking ways....

the way to solve the problems, is either you accept the truth or you DARE to face everything that have done.

21st soon....;)

it is another level of my life.

I HATE THE 1ST WEEK OF CLASS!

2011-08-04T13:10:00.003+08:00

hohohohohoo~this is my first time using campus's computer to write my blog...
( can said i am using my friend's office computer)
no facebook....T^T
finished up essay and so emails~ like been weeks didn't check my both email.
Nyiak nyial nyiak nyiak....
why i will be here?I suppose to have a class!
and so i wait my lectures for half and hour outside the classroom, and there is no one!
luckily I know a girl, she is my classmate, is kindda lucky to know a classmate before class!
and GOSH!!!
my time table is like SHIT!
it is not yet confirm, and is kindda PRO that I got 3 faculty lectures,
can tell if I am late for submission what I am gonna to do, I will faint on the spot!
I don't even know where they are from which faculty. sob sob
I should just ponteng one week instead coming to campus just a few hours.
==''
anyhow! I LOVE MY NEW HAIR STYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IS JUST SO ME! YEA YEA!!!!
l.u.r.v.e.

I realize, I was pissed off due to some uncertain stress,
went back to home and got a swim with my lovely housemate, in the rains....==''
it is so freaking cold, but is so happy that to see a rainbow....
everything that I pissed off, is gone.^^
life isn't that hard if you have another way to solve it or think it in another way.^^

A New beginning

2011-07-31T02:22:00.004+08:00

ohohohohohoo~

i feels relax~ is a good start for a new semester.

emo are away from me now,

as in, my cousin found out why recently i am so fucking emo...opppsy.

is a long story through out everything, but then,

I was shocked that she said she read my blog....@-@

is a tired day~

finally I got a time to keep my promise, bahhaha

thanks to Daryl ~haha

we going to do something amazing through out this whole year starts from tomorrow....HAHAHA

don was asking me why I am so random on the way back to hostel,

I was thinking all the time when I agreed to say I wanna "make it work" with you guys,

I should appreciate myself more, love myself more,

not to do so many sacrifices that so called "unneeded" to anyone else,

and thx for my beloved cousin, I know i am a bitcapricious and thick faces to say what I want for my 21st birthday pressie....

BAHAHAHAHA~ bo bian~ same family's DNA~

but since you promised then no choice la... >,<

and now I regret on what you said before why I didn't appreciate it last time. XP

never mind, I learned, and thanks a lot of the advice you told me in the midnight,

I feel so many people sayang me...>,< really thx my family....A LOT!

get a new way to live on from another new beginning in my 1st degree semester....

ooooouuutttt ooouuttss! IT STARTS FROM MONDAY~

and so ~i am nervous to know the results.....

which falls on 6th of august....oh no oh yea.....

oh don't know how to describe it.....god bless.

I did my best on what I wanna express out on the collection,

anyway it is my very 1st time doing cocktails and bridals.....

( but can tell chinese won't like black appearing out in wedding....)

BUT ! if i am going to get married, there is no PANTANGSSSSS on wearing black,

INSTEAD! i love black, and it is not because I am studying in limkokwing university.hahaha~

Over-thinking leads to negative thoughts

It is true, find a way to release all, and there will be a better day. :) :)

2011-07-23T15:16:00.002+08:00

好久没写了，一瞬间，三年过了，

我毕业了，虽然会再读书，可是心情却不一样了，

带着更不一样的心情去面对接下来的两年。

昨天我不知哪来不能憋的心情，从Fashion show 一完的那一时间，

我坐在后台哭了，真的掏心的哭了。

站在台上的那么几分钟，我努力的找着熟悉的脸孔，无论哪一方向都不放过，

很感激那些在STYLO认识到的朋友来，

可惜的是，我找不到，我认为给得到我勇气的朋友，

霎那间的失落，可以用我输掉一场比赛来形容吗？？

答应后的失望，打击真的很大。

因为很多事搞到对整个FASHION SHOW就只有失望。

很努力的撑到最后，笑着回后台，拿着电话，发现到了MISSED CALL，

到现在我很后悔我打回去后知道的答案，盖了电话后我真的没有办法，

第一次觉得自己那么孤单，看着身旁的朋友，家人的到来，不禁只能拿了包包，

和朋友交待一声，坐在路旁不知要做什么。

回家的路上也不知道为什么一直在哭，收到了对不起的简讯也还在哭，

很努力的忘记昨天为了什么而哭，

责备自己，错就错在我太在乎。

谢谢昕乐一路上的支持。

谢谢MAMANG在我真的不行的时候有接我的电话。

谢谢其他人，谢谢我同班同学大家一起撑到最后。。。

2011-07-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

好久没写了，虽然每隔两天就会进来看看下，

太乱七八糟了不懂要写什么才好。

一时间很想抛开很多很多的不必要，可是心里又始终不舍得，

只能骗自己，怎么会这么样呢？？

虽然不在乎付出的会得到些什么，

可是却很在意别人的眼光，

感觉上，越来越远，

好久没和你坐下来喝杯茶，

很多事情自己学会了独立面对，独立解决，

有好有坏，坏的永远是感觉不一样了，

话题敏感了，说话生疏了，

很多事情的发生让我渐渐的无法去再去相信，

终觉得不是我的，再怎样想办法去努力，

只是让自己的心更痛。。。

不必要的牵挂，忘了更好。。。

虽然每次都是讲的容易做的难~

" I know I can't take one more step towards you,cause all that's waiting is regret".

say hello to goodbye

2011-07-05T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hey there stranger, how you been
Feels like I'm standing on the outside looking in
At the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line

I can't hate you
Any longer
I know I'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.

Say hello to goodbye, cause it's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello...

And this is how it has to be
Cause it's a deadly combination, you and me
You know it's undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though I'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go

Say hello to good-bye

It's gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And I'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello...

And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net

don't know when heard this song before, just remember on the way back to hostel after yumcha...

just realize that is sing by shontelle.

like it very much....

somehow don't feels like care any single things...

I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just don't understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!fucking don't understand.....

consider for people and so what the shit you get back???

and yet " selfish" probably is the hard word for me to learn it

coz my mum never taught me that before,

and so people took advantages on you!

and in the end I can only sit there and scold myself "bitch, why you so stupid?''==''

never ask me to treat everyone equal in this world anymore as in what I get in the end always is shit.

and so, I AM A BITCH, which is better than a lot if peoples out there...

which not even a word can describe.

If our aim in life and "tune" in living is so different and hardly get along...

GET AWAY FROM ME AND STOP ACTING THERE!

2011-07-03T14:45:00.002+08:00

昨天很开心的和一班朋友去第一次去的地方，

不懂什么山芭，脑袋里只有“柳暗花明又一村”的感觉。

泡温泉，玩水上溜滑梯，吃鸡蛋（温泉水煮熟的）超好吃下~

玩玩闹闹很开心，可是也只有我！！！！

我感冒了~~~哎哟噢哟

虽然说一直很不想提起，

我想需要一点时间让我慢慢遗忘，

有时做人真的很难，

不是不跟他/她去，人家也想多多，

不想迁就那么多，跟几个好朋友出去，

还要被讲多多，要不就被诅咒，

就不对KEY的人，出去玩还是会有点不一样的嘛！

我就是这样，

很多事情还是像宝贝讲的这样

懒得解释是最好的。。。

“沉默”也是不错的方法~

2011-07-02T02:43:00.002+08:00

可能下次自己去旅行会更好，

不用想那么多，

不用在乎那么多，

就一个背包，

一个地图，

一双好走的鞋，

一个什么都敢问的嘴巴，

不怕迷路，

走到哪里，

就去哪里。。。

yea or shit....???!!!!

2011-07-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

yea i am back from penang,

at least, at some moments, I am happy to not think about any single thing in my brain...

but Unfortunately,bahahhaha~calling so many people to update me so many information I need to followed up as in "kenal" nagged....

tons of things to do,and yet I have to settle it fast!!!

still thinking I should continue my degree here or I should just leave before it is too late to make decisions.

some come back to mind no matter whoever asked u to not think about it,

it just "pop" out eventually.

anyhow, back to reality, faced it all or just let it be...

some problems will never just settle as your wish.

some people will just try to get rid of you?

and yet some people taught me to be bitchy

and until now I still dunno how to act as bitchy as they want me to be...

wad a day~

2011-06-26T01:38:00.006+08:00

hrmhrm... Friday night everyone seems like emo'ing at my place,

2 bottles of whiskey can't make them drunk,

or it should be, the one who wanted to get drunk,but fail to make it??

bahahhahahahaha~

anyway, talk a lot,wasn't in a good mood during that time...

only able to fall asleep in the morning, too many things struggling in y brain....

luckily today is super fin and happy day for me,

cupcakes time with friends in Damansara if I not mistaken....

love the decorations there...

it make me feels relax and just enjoying the cupcakes....

although a small disappointment is the long black coffee it tasted a bit sour and it is not that good to drink without sugar....

yohohohohoo....

continue with cooking Carbonara at home and potato salad....weeeweee

a big thanks to our buddy mao mao for helping us to clean the fan and the air-con...

and the basin in the kitchen still makes me feels disgusting. oh pheak~

a short break is needed to let my mind be empty a while

and filled with laughs and happiness...

it will make u feel so much better!

thanks for auntie Eileen intro us such a good place.... :) :)

BTW!!!! i want this heel!!!!!!bahahahaha

4 aunties....
okkkiiii~ my blog ended with this photo....bahahaha it just "bling" me up in certain thing...hehehe

梦境般。。。

2011-06-24T03:31:00.002+08:00

刚刚看了"单身男女” 我们家应该是我最后一个看的吧。。。

可惜的是我没什么能“投入”的看完这部戏，原因是身旁一直有个人问如果是我我会选谁啦，

你看！就是有钱人才做得到的嘛！虽然这是现实男生始终都在抱怨的。。。

有谁不想要有“第十一”男啊？？？

女生往往到了“爱情”这一个环节也没什么理智吧？

暂时没这方面的困扰，

太多琐碎的事情，

什么东西都是家人重要，我没办法不顾一切的去爱一个人还是什么，

人长越大，看的东西越多，就越有所顾虑，

而顾虑太多，什么事情都好像不如你所要的一样，

就这样，只能一步一步去做好目前最不让自己辛苦的事情就好啦

下午睡午觉有个很美很美的梦，

虽然圣诞节还有很远，

可是我梦到了圣诞节。。。

一年之中最喜欢的节日。。。。（虽然每次都是在家和电脑度过）

想起每次圣诞节在FB上的倒数，（来来去去也只有一样的人）

有点悲哀下，虽然也很开心。。。

希望今年有点不一样，

二十一岁即将来临，不知道会怎样。。。。哈哈哈哈哈。。。

2011-06-19T01:45:00.002+08:00

sleep at 10....wake up at 2am it feels so suck....

wake up with tons of messy mind....without any reasons...

luckily didn't cry out when someone is asking me to open the door.

a complicated me doesn't seems like a good thing.

I rather be random until I don't know how to describe about it...

anyhow....

just waiting for the graduation,

waiting for the fashion show of my class,

wanna get it to be amazing....

like so amazing!

plans seems like getting clearer in my mind,

just need to really push myself to face the truth...eventually I really need some "energy" or something to push me towards my limits.

Have been asking myself so many questions...

but somehow I can't give myself a good answer or a good path to face it.

hope times can give me a change to make a change.

god bless.

finally an small update

2011-06-18T02:50:00.001+08:00

it's been like more than a week i didn't really wanna to update my blog or eventually i am just BUSY in my final....

finally, finished with my semester 6 in diploma fashion design,

but a bit sad is I can't really "braid" out my jacket on time as in no matter how i braid, it took me more than 2 weeks and I still can't finished...so sad in my heart actually.

Accepted with the comments and everything that my lecture said to me,

as in I don't know why I wanna be a loner to carry out for myself.

a lot of reasons and a lot of things happened, is just me, myself didn't really cruel to face it.

this is the only thing that seems like a good of me nor a bad as well.

thanks for my housemate for helping me to do some braiding when they are free,

thanks for xiaowei for lending out her room to burn midnight oil with laughs and tears...

thanks for my mum, for everything she gave.

time passed, three years gone....the road in front is still long, it is time to really sit down and think about it...

....

accidentally cried in the afternoon during lunch...

really not blaming on anyone about the "plate" incident,

that is just a plate that i rely too much on my childhood memories,

still remember with my friends, playing, stealing a pot from kitchen and eggs,

put sand in the pot and burn it and try to cook a half boiled eggs during the mid-autumn festival,

take a plate with our dinner or lunch with that plate and sitting in front of the television and watching "salormoon" and "slam dunk"...hahaha....

well, it is 21st this year, the memories should not be following all the way till the day I get married right...

and so.... live with no regret.

2011-06-04T06:09:00.002+08:00

昨天压力忽然达到很想逃避的地步，唱K用尽全力的喊，用尽心情的唱歌，

泪不听话的流了，眼前浮现了很多美好的回忆，很想在倒带回的回忆，

很可惜的它离我越来越远，因为没办法我不能停留不走了，

那感觉越来越模糊，还不至于疯了的地步，

“爱一个人，没爱到难道就会怎么样，

别说我说谎，人生已经如此的艰难，

有些事情就不要拆穿。。。。

我没有说谎，是爱情说谎

它带你来骗我说渴望的有可能有希望。。。”

我的执著把我自己陷入了一个自己无法面对的局面，

除了无言以对，除了我自己，谁也不知道应该怎样，

说再多，没有，不说也没用，

只在于，有没有把对的话说给我想说的人。

幸福，一个人；也可以

2011-05-31T15:45:00.002+08:00

今早不小心的划下几滴眼泪，

“幸福” 这字看似简单可是不见得是，

家人给的幸福往往是最温暖的，

可是自己又会没事找事，这就是人？？

可见人生并不能真的很平淡。。。

“爱一个人，没爱到难道就会怎么样”。。。

有些事情该划下休止符的时候就应该划了，

二度伤害不是每个人都承受得起的，

世界，社会，并不会是你想象的那么完美，美好，

可是跟自己说的，还是会做到，就算是对自己最后的一次吧。

2011-05-24T02:31:00.004+08:00

有缘无缘烧酒喝一杯，乎干啦~乎干啦~

这首歌是小时候每次都听到的。。。爸爸走到哪里都在唱，

不知什么原因忽然让我想起，很好笑，

这是我的童谣吗？还有阿牛的“阿朱小调”

烦躁的时候听听童年爸爸唱得福建歌，想起老顽童的动作，

我~好~想~回~家~哦~哈哈哈

忍！！！

流浪到淡水的歌词其实很不错~蛮有意思的，

有缘无缘大家来作伙烧酒喝一杯乎干啦乎干啦

转捍着风琴提着吉他双人牵作伙为着生活流浪到淡水

自想起故乡心爱的人感情用这厚才知影痴情是第一憨的人

音烧酒落喉心情轻松郁卒放弃舍往事将伊当作一场梦

魁想起故乡心爱的人将伊放昧记流浪到他乡重新过日子

网阮不是喜爱虚华阮只是环境来拖磨人客若叫阮

风雨嘛着行为伊唱出留恋的情歌

ｉ 人生浮沉起起落落毋免来烦恼有时月圆有时也昧平

ｎ趁着今晚欢欢喜喜斗阵来作伙你来跳舞我来念歌诗

我就这样吧~这种心情撑着过FINAL，beh pai o ~~

ah ma papa mama i miss u ~ahhaha....

2011-05-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

没有标题的一篇。。。。

很多事情发生在身边的朋友，

原谅我没有什么话可以开导，

可能默默地在你身边，“哦”也可能只是我能给的答案，

可是不代表我不关心，

宝贝，你很幸福，你真的很幸福，

在你失落的时候，我们大家，一直在你身边，

哪怕是陪你吃饭，放学，聊天，让你哭。。。

决定权在你自己的手里，

不是你的就不是了，不要再做无谓的坚持，

坚持也要坚持在对的地方。

再多讲下去，自己没法踏出自己那一步，只会越来越伤自己哦~

爱你~

到我自己啦~

在这里的生活暂时只剩下三个星期，

所发生的一切，

我所爱的一切，

忽然很依依不舍，

最近我的表达能力真的变得很差，

想必，我差不多又要被说我是火星人了。。。

终觉得，解释太多反而累得是自己，不如就算了吧~啊哈哈哈

520，我没机会向谁说我爱你，

这话的意思对我来说太深，

暂时除了妈妈可以很真心的说我爱你以外，乐，琪，儿吧~哈哈哈

521，也不是世界末日~啊哈哈哈！！！！！！！我可以活久一点咯~

2011-05-16T03:05:00.002+08:00

一个星期就这样“飘过”。。。

星期四的晚上随着晓琪的IPHONE不见，HENNESY也就这样开包~

还好，我没喝多少，胃最近超不听话！！！！

第二天随着他们去CLUBBING，我没去，我没有任何理由能说服我自己去，

在家做功课，和儿两人谈天谈地~

就这样，听到了朋友们酒醉后所发生的事情，

除了笑我还是无言。

刚在车上听着歌，看着窗外的风景，

忽然好多东西闪过，头脑也就闪过

“有时得一个狠心决定在当下虽然很伤心，可是这是避免自己过后承受更严重的伤害。”

很多事情，都是自己认为那是还有机会的，反而等的等，看的看，追的追，

到最后，什么都不是，两头不到岸，辛苦的又是自己，就会自己问自己何苦？

所以，该放下的时候就放下，有些游戏持续太久很累人，又自我伤害。。。

五味杂量

2011-05-11T03:12:00.003+08:00

天气是热到我流鼻血，头痛！！！！

真的很想跳进冰桶！

今天无意间被老师叫去一旁，

冤枉的被说是我投诉。。。

当下的我都不知道发生了什么大事。。。

然后说了一大堆。。。懒得写，只知道有点被问得很无辜。。。

幸好刚刚的喝茶还不错轻松下。

自己今天不管三七二十一，勇敢面对自己逃避的压力。（虽然是被老师提起的）

自己第一次觉得做功课做到乱了阵脚，

想不到一向在功课冷静的我竟然在最后一个学期会这样。

倒数最后的五个星期。。。

心里有很多的不舍，

前几天无聊翻开电脑里的照片，

再看看琪的电脑里的照片，

跟他们/她们一起度过的每一天，

无论是喜怒哀乐，那画面，就在眼前闪过，

像是昨天所发生的事情，可是转眼三年了，

从一开始怎样认识，

谁加入我们的大家庭，

吃火锅，提灯笼，生日。。。

没钱的时候大家一起没钱的日子，

一起去哪里哪里的日子，

我试图告诉自己无论如何怎样都好，这个学期一定要学会没有他们的日子，

要不然毕业后如果没在这间学校再深造我会超辛苦，

怎知道我这学期不错幸福也！

虽然我没有兄弟姐妹的幸福，

可是谢谢老天给我可爱的家；好笑的家人亲戚，

还有这一班朋友们，

其实很想说很爱你们。。。（虽然我很像经常说哦？？）

停笔；待续。

爱的代价

2011-05-02T01:12:00.001+08:00

还记得年少时候的梦吗？

像朵永远不凋零的花，

陪我经过那风吹雨打看世事无常看沧桑变化

那些为爱所付出的代价是永远都难忘的啊
所有真心的痴心的话永在我心中虽然已没有他
走吧走吧人总要学着自己长大
走吧走吧人生难免经历苦痛挣扎
走吧走吧为自己的心找一个家
也曾伤心流泪也曾黯然心碎这是爱的代价
也许我偶尔还是会想他偶尔难免会惦记着他
就当他是个老朋友啊也让我心疼也让我牵挂
只是我心中不再有火花让往事都随风去吧
所有真心的痴心的话仍在我心中虽然已没有他

沉默的等待

2011-05-01T00:33:00.001+08:00

今天，差不多有整80% 都是在面对着电脑。。。

看戏，听歌，阅读散文。。。不错写意下~

也不知道哪里来的感觉，忽然想起中学老师所说的一句话，

“今年里，自己读了多少本书？？”

我自己还蛮愧疚的九把刀的一本杀手我竟然需要一个学期半来把它读完，

毕竟我在吉隆坡的生活不是一个人，很多事情能够让我分心不能专注。。。

今天读了很多张小娴的散文，

身边太多太多的爱情故事每天都上演着不一样的剧情，

听着他们的述说，我竟然会无言，给不到任何的帮助，

可是感觉上自己听多了也会烦，只好看看张小娴的作品平衡下自己的心态。。。

很多事情，不知道是我沟通能力真的有问题还是什么，

真的无言以对，心里有太多的无奈，忍着忍着，也不知道自己在忍些什么了。

有些时候，当你感觉到你所爱的人在背叛你或无心伤害，也许能试着的假装不知道，

装傻，装不知道，是逃避不要想，是自欺欺人，还是什么我也不知道。

暂时保持沉默，或许事情还有不一样的进步空间，也许会变好，也许会变坏，

那就把它当成是一种机会，也给自己一个安慰的理由。

　　“沉默，也许是可怜的，

希望他被你的沉默感动。

你不可能不知道，你只是不去揭破，

因为你舍不得离开。

　　我们沉默地等待，

等待对方觉悟和珍惜。

直到发觉对方不会觉悟和珍惜，我们才没有办法自欺下去。”

a bit here and there

2011-04-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

because of my left knee, i am back to jb again.

and so I guarantee that I will hide myself in my house only.

with my musics and lappy and my sketch book.

and so, there are so many love stories happen everyday...

some are happy some are sad,

a word, LOVE,

in a relationship need to have so many considerations and lots more.

thats a part...

which I don't want to touch it right now.

and NEXT!

somehow, I feels and I observed something,

once a friend having an I phone, no matter is I phone 4 or 3Gs,

having the same problems,

when asking each other out for a gathering or yumcha,

sure,the I phone holder will take their I phone out, start to playing games,

or those who don't have I phone, will play their's.

so, WHAT IS THE POINT OF YUMCHA?

if, the yumcha is to gathers all to play I phone,

then why don't just play at home rather than the others are staring at those who playing I phone?

this phenomenon has attacked my life...not only certain part of friends,

is like whenever get to yumcha, and it will happen it just like a virussss~ >,<

I am not a weirdo to saying that, but,

for me, the point of getting each others to yumcha is to have " buddies time"....

chat to relax,chat to enjoy....or else, the connection that left between friends,

will only be, games in I phone.

( not attacking anyone) :) :)

will be SHIT! week 9 !!!!!!!!!!!!!

soon! very soon I am going to graduate my diploma...

and soon! my disaster of burning mid night oil is getting closer and closer ~

well, I will really enjoy this stupid last stress in my final semester,

after this, I guess will not be able to have that kinds of rushing feels.haha

my dearest classmates,

enjoy in hell~haha

love you guys.^^

2011-04-24T16:05:00.002+08:00

哦又回来啦~

吃饱看戏设计分色喝茶三八睡觉，

而且都是无意间就凌晨三四点。。。

除了佩服自己之外什么都没有了。。。

之前接到老妈子的电话让我顿时烦了好几下，

谢谢毛毛大哥的指点，让我想通了下下。。。

窗外的雨，让我很舒服，坐在床边听着雨声，雷声，听着歌，其实不错。

最近爱上了安静，安静地自己看一样东西，做一件事，

忽然发现其实自己一个人我不会死掉，

也许早点习惯这种感觉是一件好事也说不定。

有的朋友可以很冷血，

有的朋友可以很体贴，

有的朋友可以很了解，

有的朋友可以就这样默默地就明白你在做什么，

有的朋友可以很气你，

有的朋友把你的关怀或关心当作理所当然，

有的朋友就一两句话就可以让你很心安。。。

2011-04-22T02:08:00.002+08:00

time to update....been quite some days back to k.l....

really not in a good condition....

not because of the stress,

i handle it quite well in my thinking way...

somehow my peaceful life exploded when someone didn't get the sign of WARNING and so

headache and exploded!

luckily it is small....( for me)

and so~

bluurrpppsss...

BITCH~ FINALS~,

brain been using in thinking,sketching, thinking about the colors,

think about MIFA,

somehow set a goal for myself is a way to make me keep continue doing in order to get something new....

somehow, don't ask me to change,

I know what am I doing, I know what I want in my life,

if you can't accept i am doing this way,

GET AWAY FROM MY BITCHY LIFE ASAP!

I am a bitch,

a hot temper bitch,

I live with my way...

ok...what i am reminding myself ...DONE.

continue with works....

update soon.^^

2011-04-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

ouh yea~new background new song~

just change it when I get bored with the background....

and so....been hiding inside my lovely room for 2 days besides when I get bored and go disturb baby for 5 minutes...

sleep till late afternoon with the air-con like switch on more than 15 hours

( coz no need to worry the electric bills.)

and so INTERNSHIP REPORT done!

later going to get my new IC...

another treatment for my knee,

and it is time to pack things and back to the busy city....Kuala Lumpur~

and ton and tonssss of pending assignments, whatever thing need to rush!

coz it is after mid term, and soon I am going to graduate~

and so...lets change to chinese...

今天一人独自没事做，看看报纸，发现了这句话很对，

做人有三碗面最难吃，人面，情面，场面。。。

我们的年龄越来越大，理想越来越少，规则越来越多，空间越来越少，

电脑越来越多，人脑越来越少，人类提前进入了机械化的时代。

社会的进步促成了文明的发展，

文明的发展却让获得幸福越来越难。。。

2011-04-15T23:09:00.003+08:00

Don't take people's care for granted.

No matter how much they love you, people get tired eventually.

appreciate with what I have now.

be a thankful people, it doesn't wrong.

with love.

2011-04-15T03:42:00.002+08:00

接近四点的早上我还是睡不着，

我很累，可是心里很不舒服。

宝贝，这世上占时没几个人我是这样叫的，

我不知道那一天我眼泪掉下来的那一霎那，

我是彻底放弃了。

希望你能证明你自己，

在我还没转身离去前。

mid term break

2011-04-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

it is mid term break,and I ponteng two days class of something (bling bling here)

just don't want to talk about it.

I choose to come back today....

I want to take a deep breath...wahoooo~

no matter I am going to stay all daysss long at my room or not.

just want to be like that....with my assignments.

and I think, this will be the last time I say again...

what I can helped, I did...

what you want me to helped you, I tried my best already.

the last chance is you, you are the one who holding it...

which path you want to choose, don't regret on it.

Accommodate you，

doesn't mean that you can take it for granted...

last..support you with what you want.

Has been for some time so I do not feel sad until I feels hopeless for a friend,

and was an exception,

I hope you know how painful it is....

2011-04-13T00:31:00.003+08:00

(若不是因为爱着你)

怎么会夜深还没睡意

每个念头都关於你

我想你想你好想你

(若不是因为爱着你)

怎会有不安的情绪

 每个莫名的日子里我想你想你好想你

爱是折磨人的东西却又舍不得这样放弃

不停揣测你的心里可有我姓名

爱是我唯一的秘密让人心碎却又着迷

无论是用什么言语只会(只会)思念你

 (若不是因为爱着你)怎会不经意就叹息

有种不完整的心情爱你爱你(爱着你)

I am who I am

2011-04-10T22:04:00.002+08:00

okay~continue typing both different blog today~

is just wanna to write whatever I want since its been a month I didn't write my blog.

and don't care about who going to read it or not.

"up up down down" is what I describe myself.

I am up when I am not in a good mood, and so temper is so fucking UP.

I am down when I am not in a good mood also, and so my temper is so fucking emo so it is DOWN.

and so, I can't control my emotional well, but in somehow it did give a lot of inspirations for my works.

hahah~although it is not a good well to get inspirations come from.

and so...my brain now is stuck with a lots of things....

hrm hrm~designs.....assignments you guys are like SHIT!

hahahahahahah~and that's me....

the original angelinee lee~^^

FINALLY I AM BACK

2011-04-10T19:57:00.010+08:00

waoo~its been a month didn't even update my blog,

1stly is because someone hacked my email?

and after get through from window live team only I get it back.

fuuiiyooo~

YEA~ i finished my stylo~

although I didn't won it,but its ok~

I am not sad for that, in fact I am happy for lorenzo~hahaha~

and so need to thanks a lot to a lot and a lots of peoples~

miss rose, auntie wahid, xiaowei xiao qi xiao xue vints for helping me when doing the garments,

helped in rolling threat, cutting paper, spraying paper and dadadada lots more.

2ndly have to thanks to ckayliow, xiao gua yang shaopeng mum and dad...thanks for the backstage support, fetching me in the midnight from campus back home and sleep. mum and dad, you guys just a phone call support means everything to me.

and so nicole weishen gaby doly~thanks for those hugs and scolds from you guys.

been though a different experience , a step forward,

i am not a loser yet, still have chances in the future,

will get my legs stand steady again and move on~

my lovely BFF!!!!!!!!!!!OH gosh i love you guys so much~

super model~angie ng~

hair academy buddies~

dadaaa~my 1st design and my 2nd design

my lovely mum and dad

my lovely classmates

my lovely miss rose

totally A HARD WEEK!

2011-03-12T01:30:00.002+08:00

welcome back bitch~!
hahaha~
ok~

lets update my last week,

was not feeling well during last sunday,

and so went to play badminton,

when a nice game started to play not more than 10 minutes after warm up,

I heard a weird sound from my left knee,"brak"~

and so, I sit on the floor, brain totally black out,

yes, I hurt my stupid knee,

tried to walk to the side,

and so, what comes to the next is CRYING LIKE SHIT!

call to mum, call to nicole,

my mind is totally blank on how am I going for my STYLO press conference on the next day

and so,Engkee bring me out from the court,

and so,I did idiot shit and I just dunno what to do at all.

been postpone my progression of making out the garments,

so stunned! the feeling is I never had before,

all the stress keep coming in from so many sides!

is really OH FUCK!

this is the only thing can describe,

I feels so unsafely, so uncomfortable, and so,

I need to be alone for that battle...

the feeling is like really so pain,

it either i have to choose to lose something??

2011-03-05T14:19:00.002+08:00

sorry for abandoned my blog...sorry

my semester6 starts with chaotic...

and busy busy all the way....

while is kindda enjoy.

and yet!

I AM ONE OF THE FINALIST OF STYLO 2011.

oh man~ I made it.

and pretty sure for now i am stunned!

thanks for all who still stand with me and support me.

while I know some are not.

and, all my babes are back for another new semester.

it will be a busy start.

and no matter how would it be,

i will stand strong.^^

2011-03-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

不在乎的口吻
掩飾我的認真
我再三的確認
感情有沒有變冷

你說我沒變過
孩子氣才最像我
你把近況輕輕帶過
如此寂寞

你還是一個人
快不快樂
好像又比從前瘦了
或許你已覺得無所謂
錯過了追不回
為甚麼要讓自己累

我們都不完美
怎麼追求完美
剩下這一點體會
填補空位

你還是一個人
快不快樂
好像又比從前瘦了
或許你已覺得無所謂
錯過了追不回
為甚麼要讓自己累

我還是一個人
繼續生活
也沒有特別的難過
只是夜裡偶爾想起了
那過去太深刻
多捨不得怎能忘了

好像有些甚麼
話到嘴邊又吞了
我們聊聊別的
就要走了 hmm...
希望你是真的快樂
祝你快樂

the last week of holidays

2011-02-13T00:47:00.002+08:00

dalangss....last week of holidays in j.b

wuuhooo~don't know I should happy or I should cry~

hahaz....and so....lappy faster come back to me please...

and so~I finally change my hand phone.

although at 1st I really think of changing Blackberry...

and....after sometimes...

it doesn't suit me at all as in I am a noob!

as for Iphone... not my choice because my hands is so easy to sweat...

how am I going to "slide" and pick up the phone all the time?? haha

and so...I just get a phone that can have good mp3 and so I just plug in all the way~

whenever I back home or go anyway~

and so...

another new song that I like...

by Pink...fucking perfect.^^

and so ....if you listen to radio, I guess there is another version which is without the "fucking"

ahah.....

just like this song so much.....

up up down down swing swing

2011-02-10T01:27:00.002+08:00

after came back from kampung...

I had 2 great days to sleep and rest enough before the 1st day of work after chinese new year.

bought 2 magazines and read and accidentally found out two young designers in one of the magazine.

I was shocked...and so it takes my 1st attention to read the interview...

is good to know, young designer is getting up in Malaysia's fashion industries.

in the meanwhile....

I am thinking about myself...

both of them are almost same age with me,

and so peoples already famous till can have a chance to Paris,

and what the hell I am still a student in Limkokwing...

I sit down and think...

ya...I really like their design...is true.

and so...don't blame on the others...

there are just too many things can't decide by myself..

no matter I am come from a wealthy family or not.

I still need to work hard and hard for myself.

there is a dream in my heart,it always there...

no matter how hard it going to achieve or

I need to take how many years to achieve it...

the moment I achieved and I get what I want,

I believe, the tears that drop down from my eyes.

it shows,I am happy and it is worth it.

2011-02-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

i am back~~~~~~~~~~~

ok~my chinese new year keep kenal scold by my mum due to her PMS!

and so not in a very good condition with her...

and so...went to nice place with my big auntie...to pavilion and to kuala langat

happy and tired trip with 3 small kids running here and there...

that is my 1st day of CNY

and comes to 2nd day....

wake up in the afternoon...

meeting up with my 2nd auntie,my dearest cousin as well...

back to Kuala Pilah...OH GOSH!

hometown is always sooooo sooooo hot!

nice minangkabau's food there...

and now I missed them so much~

and so went to my "great- uncle's house to visit them...

really in a kampung...and it's name is Kampung Dioh..

hehehe~finally know who is my other cousins as in we never keep in touch before...

and so have to thanks to FACEBOOK! and we keep in touch...

yea~next time can go my auntie's there and play ...yumcha with my lengzai cousins...are they?

hahhaa

and so....traffic jam back to JB...

and today went to renew my IC...

and my dad take a doggy beside the road and bring her back...

named ah gurl...aiyoo.....so typical name of her...

and dad said when I back KL no one accompany him so he bring this dog back to accompany him..

and so he can talk to the dog...warafak!

angpao angpao!faster come to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha

2011-02-01T15:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a great day hanging out with friends after half day of work.

finally! HOLIDAYS FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WUHOOOOO!

and so,had a movie with them," 新少林寺"

makes me cry a lot of times....

and think about life...

and so...

we went to 北京楼for dinner...

and "tutus" madam Tan come and eat dinner with us!

get her 1st angpao~HAHAHAHA~

and so...yumcha in 疯人馆，

very enjoy!super enjoy....

keep laughing non stop all the time....

and on the way back to molek,

in Mr.Tan Boon Fhong's car, aiyooyooo!

almost laugh until cry! with Fun Yew Mummy and Qun Leong as well...

hahahaha~really keep laughing non stop!

and so...went to yumcha with dad and mum...and so....

old folks nagging~I can't stand it...

and I ciao again yumcha with michelle...

hahaha~so reach home at 2am!

wuhooo!

is like so long time never did this before...

and dalanngg~

wuuhooo~

intro new songs to gua,

and so sleep till 2pm~so fucking nice~~yea yea!

OHHHH yeaa~~~

2011-01-30T16:33:00.002+08:00

its TOOOOOO BORED!

since everyone in Malaysia....like posted in Facebook,

Rain rain raining day, when It gonna stop...

or where start to get flood....

and yea, J.B rain for 3 days 3 nights non- stop,

one thing come,

I don't like to go out, no matter where,

coz I don't like the water on the floor split on mie!

it is so fucking dirty!

and for sure, after Chinese New Year, I guess will be no rains...

(although weather is hard to predict) ahahahha~

and yea~ I change my blog's font...

I don't know why I make it till not really my style,

but what I trying to do is,

No matter I am mood-swing,or happy or sad,

whenever I posted something on, at least at that moment I am happy. ^^

waiting to back k.l...

i am like writing this sentence EVERY TIME i update my blog....

just can't wait!

i miss my chit chat with friends...

I miss my babe,miss my baobeis,miss my bitches SO FUCKING MUCH!

2011-01-29T01:46:00.003+08:00

somehow I still need to come and update my bloggy...

no matter I am so fucking tired for the whole day intern job...

and I am count downing everyday when can I back to my lovely hostel although it is kindda a ulu place,but somehow it is just like a heaven for some while.

and yea, I don't even cares about the grammar I used in my blog,

too formal it doesn't suit me at all.hahha

phew~ another week going to end so and yea...

the Chinese New Year come...

I did buy some new clothes for myself...and yea...
all of them can't wear during Chinese New Year

as in all of them are either Black or Grey~

warafak i never notice at all!

and...

just simply get a t-shirt to go....

and yea!

26th! I gotta remember this important day which is I get a Girlfriend....

Yaya~my babe~hahaha~love eiuux...

discover some good songs...

some from my bitch ckay,

some from the radio...and yea~

all of them are nice...

waiting for the results to come out,

waiting to go back K.L for LIFE!

and duh~I just get use the "system" of working and so I have to leave...

is good also.I am just 20 don't stuck me in a small factory...

world I am coming~

xoxo~

2011-01-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

been lotza day listen this song in "hot fm''?am not really sure about it.

at 1st I am like err....why this song starts with "if I die young..???

and so I google it,I youtube it....

and fall in love with this song so much....

If I die young....by The Band Perry...

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song....

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother

She'll know I'm safe with you

When she stands under my colors

Oh and life ain't always what you think it ought to be,

no...

Ain't even grey...

小小发泄

2011-01-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

我最不喜欢那一种当他/她没事的时候，无聊的时候你很重要，

当你真的喘不过气的时候出现的一定不会是那一个人，

没生气，只是自己拿来笨，

笨到为什么我是一个“烂好人”

朋友都说，不要一直当好人，

当你了解了我后，如果利用我的这一点的话，

那我会说，不是我不知道，

是我依然相信，我没做错任何对不起自己，对不起天地的事情就足够了，

当我忍不下去选择离开的时候，

是不会回头的了。因为已经彻底的伤心，

当我不再是那个喜怒哀乐跟你说话的我，就真的句号了，

因为并没有什么是值得的了。。。。

也谢谢一直得空会来看下我死了没有的朋友~

还有我的中学宝贝们我真的是对不起啦~没啥时间，可是我会尽量的~

毕竟，你们都了我的性格嘛，还是一样以前的三八啦~哈哈哈~

“下一站，幸福”无论我看了是第二，还是第三，还是；

哭了。

a small "tutu"ss

2011-01-16T13:53:00.002+08:00

yea...another week end...hehe

and yea,I been opening my blog for several days and....it is blank...

whenever I want to write,is either I fall asleep out of no where,

or,is time for me to watch tv and abandon it again....hahahax

and so yea...thats lots and lots thing wanna say...but duh...

just don't feel like wanna nag it out in my blog...

just finished read the newspaper,

something caught my attention with...

"what makes you feel happy the most in year 2010"??something like that...

erm as for me, I guess, is the hard works I put on my studies...

besides that,I think I am still not yet a good "people" in my life.LOLX

is either I totally become a bitch, or just like my name, Angelinee ( the messenger from the god)???!!??

and yea,lets talk about this...

MR.Ckay Liow said that I had to control my "kisiao-ness" and my "randomness"

yea...I laugh in front of my lappy because of this...

and so do, Mr.Chin Hoong Keat said the same...

oh gosh~yea, my kisiao and my random is part of my life,

I don't know how to change,I don't know how it comes,

and I don't know how it happen.haha

they are the "trend mark" of Ms.Angelinee Lee

and yea, I will try my best to change a bit,

so that you guys life will not be so hard.ahahhaa

xoxo.

TERRIBLE MOOD-SWING WEEK!

2011-01-12T00:14:00.002+08:00

OKok okiieee..........

I am having my typical angelinee's mood-swing week!

I can so easy to cry,to laugh....

to sing a song loud out of reasons...

I can so fucking Emo hiding in my room with simply browsing my lappy....or just surf net...

and ya...no reasons for the mood-swing...

luckily...

got a good long talked just now with leeling....

oh gosh....time passed like soooo fucking fast!

one year passed....

it just passed like this...

I said before I never regret on something I did before...

but yea,now i am a bit regret on something...

something that is hard to say out by words....

but thats no way to back....only look forwards,

there are lot of "if"....happened...

the more " if " in my life...

the more tears in my life...

2011-01-10T02:38:00.003+08:00

haiz...now is 2.30 I still haven't on bed.....omg

what the hell I been watching "One piece" till I cried....

not only this,I found out nowadays I am so easy to cry....it is not a good sigh.

watch autumn's concerto also cry,one piece also cry....haiz

since the day back to J.B i been listening to this old song whenever I am lying on my bed,

or,during working...

when I plug myself with my MP3 player....

I am pretty sure I don't know how many times I need to repeat ..hahah

it is just a sad old song,

but,it always flash back a lot of memories...

no matter is sweet,happy or sad,

Bryan Adams's song always attracted me the most.

I love his sound so much...

until I don't know how to describe I like his sound so much...muakaka

ok....the song that always make me repeating

besides "I don't wanna miss a thing"

is, "Please forgive me"...

well,I am not asking anyone to forgive me as in,currently I did nothing wrong...

just...the lyrics attracted me so so so much.

It still feels like our first night together

Feels like the first kiss and

It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

Ya....here it goes...

well, thats lots and lots words I wanna type out but ya,

in certain ways I don't know how to say it out,

maybe the thing I need the most is 'TIME'

TIME TIME TIME,

so hope the time can just stop a while,

in the moment when I am so duper fucking happy!

but ya,the things you lost,will never get back,

as I know I am not that lucky at all...

2011-01-09T13:39:00.003+08:00

yea~

got some extra time on saturday to change my blog's background and blar blar blar~

ahahhahaahahaha~

I did it in a nice condition,which is eating secret recipe's cakie with a milk tea~

waoo~finally get myself a time to enjoy...LOL

and... edited my photos to be the blog's big tittle there....Muakakkaka~

waoo~that shows my happiest life I had before...

with my good friends and BFF....muakakakkaka ...

and a new song...it is not rock or sad...

but I don't know why I want to put this...ahahha~

well, a new year,a new ANGELINEE LEE?

wuhoooohooo~

2011-01-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

这个星期过得还真快，不知不觉，

就这样又一个星期了。

唯一开心的是，上个月的工钱出了，

可是在出工钱的第一个晚上就两百飞了，

我还蛮佩服我自己的。

这星期的我，真的不知道干嘛一直很想哭，真的很想哭，

就这样，胃痛和我做好朋友了。。。

2011-01-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

before I sign in my blog there are lotz and lotza words I wanna say and write it ALL in my blog...

but then...after I think and think twice...

summarize with something...

在失去过某些东西才懂得开始珍惜，

在你想对的人说的话，

在他/她还没走时，

什么都不算迟。

这世界很多人留了很多的回忆给我，

可是哪一段是精彩的，

参杂了喜怒哀伤，五味杂粮，

也因此；

当你无意想起的时候，

才会明白，

他们对你的付出。

或是你对他们的付出。

有时，仅仅一个笑容，

就好了。。。

我想我也明白为什么我那么喜欢AEROSMITH' S - I DON'T WANNA MISS A THING

不是像电影里的世界末日，

而是，

就在我身旁的任何人，对我好疼我的人，我都不想失去。。。

my 1st post on year 2011

2011-01-03T12:26:00.003+08:00

erhhrm...my 1st post in my bloggy of year 2011 is not on the 1st day...

is on the 3rd of jan...

OMG coz i had a very terrible food poisoning that I never had before!

due to the 1st day party of 2011...

ok...everyone is so duper fine and only me!

been vomit and diarrhea till this morning and finally i ahead to see my beloved Dr.Lau.

get a Medical leave for today...haizzzzzzzzzzzzz

what a good start of year 2011!

I hope this is just a bad day of 2011 and after this i will good luck till boom piak piak!hahahaa

2010-12-31T01:46:00.002+08:00

no matter how,

have to stand strong,in the new year...2011 here it comes...

hopes to make a lot of wishes,

but I know make wishes do not mean that It really will come true,

I am the one to "make it work"...

so...

reminder: not make myself busy in helping others so much until I got no time for myself.

be what I want to be...coz there is only one Angelinee lee in this world.

thanks to those who broke my heart in certain things before,

thanks to those who really stand by me when I need them.

thanks to my mum and dad for giving me what I have now.

thanks to god for what I have till now.

2010-12-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

爱得太真

太容易让自己牺牲

　　太容易让自己沉沦

　　太容易不顾一切满是伤痕

　　我太笨明知道你是错的人

　　明知道这不是缘分

　　但是我还奋不顾身

　　但我相信有点可能

　　可能在爱里面这样算笨

　　可能永远没有所谓永恒

　　但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能

　　宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

2010-12-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

我最近的日子就像我自己形容得真是太恰当了，“复印纸的生活”

不是我不要去找朋友，坦白说还真是有点懒，懒得交待，懒得守时要几点到家，

懒得不知道要不要吃晚餐而要交待，所以就是“懒”！

就生活在早睡早起，做工，放工，玩FACEBOOK的日子中，

唯一比较好的是健康。。。哈哈哈。。。

刚看了一位朋友的部落格让我用了我的头脑来想东西。。。

哇~我好久没用头脑的感觉~

我爸妈这个星期的节目比我还要多，

要死，我好像步入了更年期这样。。。

我不要毕业啊！

老妈有提起我要不要继续深造。。。我高兴得半死。。。

现实的问了她一句，你够用来给我读吗。。。哈哈哈

我今天有点小开心，和我做工的秀珍阿姨回来了~

终于不用一个人赶到半死。。。

她说我很开朗很有自信，我到觉得我是神经质，

开心的时候开心，伤心的时候就伤心，

就算是废话我也想写我的部落格，阿哈哈

就证明了，我有过那么几分钟的快乐。。。^^

2010-12-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

back to update my blog...

nothing much to update...

my christmas countdown with family ended up I can't stand with children are too noisy and back home escaped away from the chaos myself.

hahaa~

do nothing besides eat....during chritsmas...big crabs!yuuhoooo~

hrmhrm....my brain in "blank" status for some days.

I don't know the reason,

the times I really used my mouth to talk overall in a day won't more than 1 or 1 and a half hours I guess so...so less....and getting lesser.

sometime feel like talking and there is no one else for me to talk with,

the feeling is kindda lonely and it doesn't feels good at all.

anyway...luckily I still got my lappy...songs played days and nights....

never stop....

just to keep myself in relax or just not lonely.

haha....

waiting for the new year to come.^^

2010-12-22T20:20:00.002+08:00

yea....is "dong zhi" lor...

anyway,one year older.>,<

haiz haiz....haiz haiz....

this is the only thing I can say everyday...

although I am having "healthy"life everyday that more than 80% I sleep before 1am or 1.30am

and woke up at 8.15am to work...

my life currently just like photocopy paper...almost everyday the same,

my interns is like being a pattern maker in a uniform's small factory.

quite lucky that my lady boss is young,about 31.

and learned kindda lotz from her as well...

everyday cutting fabrics,is my mine job,drawing fixed patterns is my second job.LOL

blar blar...nose bled for 3days....omg...

is that necessary I need to go and consult a doctor??

stuck a tissue paper into my nose and stop it to bleed today...==''

and everyday i said i nose bled again....my dad is like so serious looked at me...

"why you nose bled everyday?"how i know...always became my answer.

tututu~a lot of things change my mind towards my life...

OMG!lets come a good summary for 2010 and after Christmas party that will be 2011~

this year...my life is not that "dramatic" which is a good sigh.

Nevertheless,

this year need to thx those who scolded me and make me from "blur" to "in situation"

--my mum,LOL,my baobei lelechai,xiaowei,and bitchy ckay liow at the 1st half year due to something, classmates will be weishen I guess so...thx for guiding me during finals.^^

2ndly those who accompany a lot one...lelechai as well,(coz left both of us=='')yang,xiao gua,xiao wei and duper sissy vints!

no matter how many tears have dropped,

it doesn't matter,

as long as once fall, I still can climb back and walk again...

life will never get easy!

xoxo

2010-12-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

december is getting to end soon...

and 2010 is coming...

not hoping much...

hope that next year everything will be smooth as what I want although somehow is impossible.

hope that I can graduate happily.

hope everyone is happy...

when come to year end...

a favorite song list of mine will be posted here...haha the favorite 10 songs that I like the most this year is...

1) aerosmith-I don't wanna miss a thing ( I guess this is forever)

2) lady antebellum- Need you now

3) far east moment- like a G6

4)林宥嘉-说谎

5)张靓颖-如果这就是爱情

6)张惠妹-别在伤口上撒盐

7) Bryan adams- Please forgive me

8)Colbie Cailat-I never told you

9)Bon Jovi- Thank you for loving me

10)Rod Stewart,Sting and Bryan Adams- All for love

although most of these are old songs...

but it just mean something...the lyrics are good...^^

2010-12-16T02:48:00.000+08:00

don't wish to think about it

but i just can't.

am I so sux?

a YOHOHOHO day

2010-12-14T00:28:00.005+08:00

today is the very 1st day i try to be EARLY BIRD!

went to interview...

and finally got my internship working place in a tailor place...

which i straight away get that offer than the another one.

as I can improve my damn pattern drafting in the meanwhile and learn something new....

ahahhaahhaaa~

after that.....something mad is

I THROW AWAY TWO PAIR OF MY SHOES THIS MORNING!

ARK!

went to eat breakfast with my lovely platform and prepared to go interview,

Piak~"dad,can we go back home a while?"

then throw away...take another one ...

went to the 1st interview place...walking with very very uncomfortable flats...

and after that went to 2nd place,after deal with my intern start tomorrow...

dad...I want to go jusco alone...!bought a new flat...and another throw into big rubbish bin!

this is so called been in K.L too long...all the shoes in J.B all rosak liao~faint.

got my very 1st early bird movie alone....yea~finally i got u harry potter...

and after that shopping to wait my darlings...

went to yumcha at bubble tea shop...

HRMMM~I NEED TO GET A NEW HAIR DRYER BADLY!

don't ask me the reason i don't want to talk about it...

or else...my hair will be so weird...lah...

2010-12-12T01:53:00.004+08:00

今天刚回到家就超级不好的消息传来了耳边。

我从小到大第二只心爱的狗狗走了。

NANA，这名字我帮你取的，

因为之前你们三只小宝贝被我叫成KANASAI，

然后你是中间的，所以你是NANA，

从小你就比姐姐和妹妹可怜因为你眼睛看不到，

可是你超级无敌聪明，可爱。

在上了大学后没什么时间陪你玩，

也寄予很多很多不必要的事情再度发生把你给了别人，

每次回家很想你可是又不能去看你，奥尔远方看到你。。。

今天回来的我心情本来就不怎么好，

邻居一说我是无言，

一路好走。。。

希望你下世无论投胎成什么，是可以再看到世界的。

爱你，NANA。。。

2010-12-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

ahead back to jb...

it is such a fast decision to make this but I have to...

mum is so worrying about me and almost we talked on the phone everyday...

everyday same words from her...

and when the moment I decided to back to JB

and i received the calls for internship...

WHAT THE HELL THEY WANT FOR ME!

anyway...

junwei went to lilian's house and took two puppies...

OMG...they are so naughty until I wanna faint...

help them to bath...

and put them in the room...

they escape out and shit all the way around....

I almost faint when I saw it.

and ahead to my cousin house..

taking a luggage shopping in mid valley and had a very late breaklunch alone...kindda enjoy actually....

ahahahhaha~

and bring two lovely kids down for swimming...(is playing water)...

had a nice day with my nieces....follow up down up down...lol

ANYWAY....

nites...

2010-12-08T03:00:00.002+08:00

现在自己一个人还没睡觉，整间家的人和狗都睡了，

发现自己心中慢慢的浮现很多的不舍；

发现自己已经二十岁了，

发现身旁的朋友来来去去的知心的就只剩下那几个，

发现不知不觉中就要开始我最后一个学期了，

心中的不舍要怎么说呢？

2010-12-07T17:22:00.002+08:00

tututu~

i am in k.l lor...2days ago...

erm ok I still not that clear that which part I located only know that I am in Cempaka.

such a disaster from Bkt Jalil travel to here...

and travel from here to sunway took me from 11am to 1pm only reach...

whole day no food walk walk walk...

I wonder how I survive from that...

and raining day...

chaos at Pasar Seni...back with wild wild wet.haha

this is the way to know how K.L peoples live everyday.

haiz....anyway,don't know my next day how to survive but I will survive.ahha

2010-12-04T06:10:00.002+08:00

6am in the morning I still haven't sleep!

i throw so much money on my face also no use!

OMG!my air-con not functioning well...

I can't sleep.....this is the main reason...

haiz....I been playing big two poker on Facebook more than 2hours...

but I am still hyper....lolx.

tututu....kindda happy coz this short holidays I spend quite some time with my lovely niece.

haha,xuan xuan and ling ling...

as for xuan xuan,erm,make me so duper tired,but still ok with when she take my auntie's hand phone and called me said" gu gu, I miss u...."

ok,she never did it before,so i am like HUH???

and cry coz I said I got things to do,have to go out awhile and back K.L soon.

as for ling ling is my eldest cousin's daughter....

whenever she saw me she will cry...because I wear a thick frame specs.speechless.

and Estelle said ling ling cry also when she looked at my 2nd cousin...LOL

I never think that we look something same...but why others said so??

Anyway,my cousin did a little nag on me...haha....but is fine....coz his nag is funny.

and,this week I try a lot of good food....

like,姜子鸭，猪肚汤，西洋菜汤，红酒鸡，Minangkabau's style gulai( curry),asam pedas,bihoon soto,and a quite different garlic cheese nan...yea!

but all are like very suitable for pregnant woman one...haha....(i am not pregnant)

is...2 months later we gotta have a new baby girl at Lee's family.

waiting for her to come^^

teaching my nieces to draw always is my job.ahah....

and,become a mother is very hard,

I also need to accompany a pregnant woman to buy milk powder lah,pampers lah...

omg....I don't want to get married that earlier !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT IS A NIGHTMARE!

hahah...wadever....

going back to k.l lor..

don't know is happy or not happy....yohohoh~

2010-12-02T04:16:00.002+08:00

不知道为什么，前几天才和乐乐聊了做工的事情，

现在，惨，只能无言来表达，始终还是受保护的动物。。。悲哀。

“有时候我觉得自己是一只小鸟
想要飞却怎么也飞不高
也许有一天我攀上了枝头却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠
每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我明天没有变的更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好
世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖当你决定为了你的理想燃烧
生活的魔力与生命的尊严哪一个重要
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高

听了这首歌，半夜一个人，感触特别的多，

不想想太多了，

只告诉自己，睡了一觉醒来我会好的。

加油咯，

远方的朋友，你们还好吗？

幸好还有一群不错的姐妹。。。

想；你们了。

2010-12-01T01:13:00.002+08:00

dudududududu....

ahaha....the above "dududududu" i wrote like 2 hrs just now and now I continue to write.

IT'S DECEMBER~yea~~~~~~~~~~~~

don't know why...

whenever comes to december...i will be so happy happy ever..

not because of the Christmas...

just happy.

anyway...

30th of November is my lovely dad's birthday...

he don't like to celebrate...

and he still be the home chief for dinner...

me and mom went to buy a small cakie for him...

he just eat one mouth.haiz.

i shouted at him loudly at the evening....

"ah pek...happy birthday"!

haha...he stunned awhile and smile.hahha

coz,i am a daughter that always "no big no small" which is no respect...

haha~it just the way we communicate.

dada~

2010-11-28T03:51:00.002+08:00

hey hey...

again for my blog...

change my blog's song back to Aerosmith-I don't wanna miss a thing.

but is piano's version.

I don't know why,

I feels that this song really mean a lot.

I should live like appreciate everyday coz tomorrow is Armageddon.

That's why I still put back this song.

start on twitter today...

although I have nothing to play much on that.

anyway I will try.

had a great dinner with my family at korean's restaurant.

1st time for mom and dad tried for the really awesome kimchi and soju.

I feels guilty as in sometime I will enjoy great dinner with my friends at K.L while my dad and mom eat so simple at home or outside...

only whenever I back to J.B only they say lets out for something new.

and my mum won't even go shopping herself as in my dad won't go with her.

feels really bad. T^T

luckily accompany my mom for a 3hours shopping.

off to bed....

rest for a few days.

should get enough of rest.

almost have to prepare back to K.L...^^

2010-11-27T03:00:00.007+08:00

这几天很努力的写部落各；因为在家一个人。

起了不错的一个大早，把我那书橱翻了一遍，

好多以前的美好回忆，伤心的也有。

最值得的是找到周记，翻了几篇，发现自己的想法真的变了，

随处不知道哪里跌出来我自己以前很喜欢的一首歌歌词。

看了至少五分钟我才知道这首歌对我的意义。。。

就很悲。。。“毁灭爱情”，林冠吟。

发现后当然找了又听了一天。。。

还有当年当兵时朋友送了的画，虽然说是随手画的，可是我竟然收到现在，

放进PHOTOSHOP后弄了后，感觉就真的更强烈了。。。

我就是特地不要让整幅画看起来干净，那种感觉就像我们当兵时只为了梦想。。。

哈哈。。。还有翻出了自己第一次花钱买的正版CD，不是流行歌，是MAKSIM的首张。

也丢了很多，爸妈回来时我还偷偷地和爸说我已经很努力的消灭证据了，我丢到后门口了，

垃圾车几时来嘛？老妈看到了我还能不去避难？

还有我小小时候DISNEYLAND的背包。。哈哈。。。这真的不舍得丢啦

阿哈哈。小小的重温是不错的。^^

vocalist
base
drum
guitarist

2010-11-26T04:13:00.002+08:00

yohohohoho~

November is going to end and once December come and....

going to be another new year~

a great "rough" year I had...

and I never scare to have more rough in my life as in,

no matter how I fall,

as long as I brave enough to stand up again and walk again.

up up down down,low low....==''

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

肩膀上还有很多的负担，无论怎样我都不能倒下。

就算累了在路旁累哭了也没关系，坚持着自己的梦想。。。

身旁的人教会了我什么是现实，

人与人之间的残酷知道后是很可怕的，

那么深的黑洞如果探索了自己也只有死，

好过不要去，这不叫逃避，这叫，

善待自己至少让自己觉得世界还有美的一面，

就算时间现在倒回三年中学刚毕业的我我觉得我还是会走回这条路。

珍惜我的人我一样会珍惜你，爱我的人我一样会爱你，

我就是这样。

假情假意的人不要让我知道；不要敷衍我，

我不笨。别让我拆了你的面具；那只会换来伤心。

情意重常常换来的也只有是自己掉眼泪，

没关系；这些都没关系。

这几天和刘老师深聊了，

无论环境怎样的变，最重要的是我的心没变，就好了。

就这么简单的一句话，很多在我心里的问号都渐渐消失。

在我们的世界中人长得美一些努力都不需要付出百分百，

嘴巴甜一点的人不用跑东跑西就能轻易的达到他/她要的东西。

至于普通的人，什么东西就是会慢人家一步，除非你不择手段。

我好奇不择手段的人为什么每天晚上还可以那么好睡。

可能我小学的道德教育到现在都还不能忘所以我做不了坏人。

我就只能有坏嘴巴。

我的部落各不敷衍看我UPDATE的人，

至于什么无味杂粮都会依着我的心情来UPDATE，

我自己并不觉得有什么不好。

这就是我；

我自认名字对一个人有着很大的影响，

不然，我就不配拥有李家的这个名字。

所以我的“TAK TEN-TAK TU”将会陪我一直下去。

2010-11-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

ermmhrmmmhrmmmm~
rainy days in JB...

sleep sleep sleep like a pig.....zzzZZZzzz

but is awesome~

and every night pps for one piece....duper nice~and so touched!

what else I did?

arrange up my portfolio...

erm...

time arranging in my brain...

blar blar...

enjoy a while before I am going to put myself a lot of works.

ermm,hate those bastard who asked me to help on but still havent give confirmations.

I a not a 24 hrs stand by people please!DUH!ANGRY!

anyway....

happy and stay healthy...

have to back to normal routine...^^

2010-11-23T14:11:00.005+08:00

this is just the very small amount of my hair "phew'down from my"big head"

while cutting my hair....

teh ice you have to guai guai don't play

as super-hyper hamster at mor and andy house ah!

...............................................................................................................................

yoorr!i am on the way back home....

raining outside....i think i can't reach jb within 4hrs time.....

haiz,can't bring my little cutie back home,

and mor mor have to take care of teh ice...

sorry to let mor mor be teh ice nanny.

if i confirm when got interview for my internship and once confirm,

i will bring you back ya teh ice....

had a new hair style yesterday by CKay liow....

yo!i am so handsome lor~not pretty but handsome...

yea!

what else,

now is so fucking cold in the bus....zzz

I hate to back home alone with 1 luggage,1pack of comforter,1 lappy bag and one handcarry whatever is inside...muakaka

BUT!

Tonight can go eat 果条仔luur~

yohoohohooo~

duh~i think i only can rest a few days and...

blar blar blar...

story continue after in jaybee...

2010-11-21T23:21:00.004+08:00

my 1st pedicure at A cut Above
at full house for CHI YANG LO~
yohohoho!

i checked out my room d...

and back home...T^T

and went to pavilion, Fahrenheit , lot 10 zara's front door...

and sunway....

duh! so randomly...

1st time helped yang celebrated his birthday...

I know,earlier more than 10 days,

but semua orang sudah nak balik kampong lah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and...i spend rm 35 to do my 1st pedicure outside...

not by myself...dark bling purple...while lele wash and blow her hair.

and....great lunch at DRAGON!omg...

i gotta miss it if i back jb for 3months...

and it is expensive.

sometime have to enjoy xia...

and bought "the loaf" bread back to jb for mummy....^^

hope she wont scold me coz the bread is expensive...

hahazzz....

HAPPY!and tired.

2010-11-20T18:11:00.007+08:00

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

eiiiyyerrrr~~~~~~~~~~~~~

delay the day to back home.

BUT!!I AM HAPPY!

hahaz

finally did th very very 1st time outdoor photo shooting for my collection....

yohohoho~

1st have to thx to MAO MAO 1ST...

asked him to come so early and ended up he wait the models to finish the makeup...

so paiseh xia.

2nd, have to thx to CKAY LIOW....

my tube dress for my model was missing....

(maybe becoz last week presentation was chaos in photolab there)

and u suddenly take out a tube man!

you never like magician before ler~

and thx for the hair!!!!!!!nice daoooo~

3rd!haagen and sharon...

thx for the makeup....

4th...thx to my lovely models....

jiaying weishen and zhangwei.

semester 5 ended like peacefully.....

don't know next semester is that going the same???

anyway,

don't think so much...

I-N-T-E-R-N-S-H-I-P

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

although it havent start....==''

"this world got a lot of people,

I start to don't know who are good, who are bad,

who are police who are thief"

2010-11-19T02:40:00.002+08:00

ok....

dadada~

the very 1st time went to genting with xinle without rely on anybody!

we are so genius!

but....it is seriously FUCKING tired!

bus bus monorail taxi....

hahah~

able to meet my cousin and estelle...

although what zhixuan said I don't understand at all.

the best time is having a pizza lunch with lele and starbucks...

when type till here,

realize,been passed through so many time,

flashback of us, when all of us still together,

randomly up to genting,and sit at starbucks till morning.

and now feels like only left me and xinle walk till now.

friends and friends the most important is tolerant.

and....blar blar blar...

this is not the main point.

back to the story XP...

great time only need great peoples that always care you.

the others is just the passengers,

at 1st I doesn't believe on this,

but...time passed, it mean it.

anyway.

time to pack things and back home,

get a whatever 2 and a half months later,

and prepare for the last semester.

2010-11-16T05:31:00.002+08:00

yoohoohoooo~

i fall asleep accidentally right after my dinner and my bath....

woke up at 2 something I guess so...

starving and cooked omelette's.

had a nice and crazy all day in workshop...

laughing,gossiping,shouting,playing,joking,and assignments also

haha!!!!finally took some photos that shoot by Ronald...

I want the other one also....

feels that is tears in eyes when,

I saw my hard work doesn't wasted.

although still got something is wrong...

gotta to improve next semester...

this semester have to thanks to weishen very much on guiding me at the very 1st moment...

although is scold lah~

hahah....then all missing in actions for sewing blah blah blah till today.

nothing gonna push me backward edi,

I finally saw my own confidences in the photos,

I finally dare to stand out one step,

and move on.